My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life was the worst

The most depressed I've ever been

Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead

I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now

Like, I may never have a song this big again

My tour, I think every date sold out except one date

So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening (Yeah)

And I felt... I didn't feel happy at all

And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad

'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it

There's gotta be more for me

'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work"