[Verse 1]

Dear God, please

Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years

Since I've reached

Out and said hello, I bet You're wonderin'

Why I keep

Obsessing on and stressin' all the little things

When I should be

Living life and soakin' up the memories

I know I've been selfish, I have

No excuse to give You, it's true

Hanging by a thread's how I live

I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable

[Chorus]

Livin' in my agony, watchin' my self-esteem

Go up in flames, acting like I don't

Care what anyone else thinks when I know truthfully

That that's the furthest thing from how I

Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine

Who I'd be if I was happy

[Verse 2]

Yeah, been this way so long

It feels like somethin's off when I'm not depressed

I got some issues that I won't address

I got some baggage I ain't opened yet

I got some demons I should put to rest

I got some traumas that I can't forget

I got some phone calls I been avoidin'

Some family members I don't really connect with

Some things I said I wish I woulda not let slip

Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips

Some bridges burned I'm not ready to rebuild yet

Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes

I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul

And the last to admit I need a hand to hold

Losin' hope, headed down a dangerous road

Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm

[Chorus]

Livin' in my agony, watchin' my self-esteem

Go up in flames, acting like I don't

Care what anyone else thinks when I know truthfully

That that's the furthest thing from how I

Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine

Who I'd be if I was happy

[Bridge]

Don't know what's around the bend

Don't know what my future is

But I can't keep on livin' in—

[Chorus]

Livin' in my agony, watchin' my self-esteem

Go up in flames, acting like I don't

Care what anyone else thinks when I know truthfully

That that's the furthest thing from how I

Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine

Who I'd be if I was happy

[Outro]

(Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh)

If I was happy

(Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh)

If I was happy