[Prelude]

Ingrained deep holocaustic dreams

Of a world devoid of any enemies

Evasiveness, complacent lethargy

Protagonism preventing empathy

Divide justified by injury

Logical rationale for infidelity

Misoneism and botch identity

Generation sins doomed to repeat

[Intro]

Get your hand out of your garment

I’m wasting away

I’m dying here; why don’t you care

That I’m heading for decay?

Addicted to this chrysalis

Cloistered, kicking at every goad

Secrets, fear, avoidance, guards

Shame is all I know

[Chorus]

And my heart is so depraved

And my mind is so depraved

And my body’s so depraved

And my soul is so depraved

And my heart is so depraved

And my heart is so depraved

[Verse 1]

Cleanse me, O God

Purge my heart from sin

I got termites in my arteries

And I got moth-infested skin

Purge me, O God

Help me all you can

I got nothing righteous in my blood

I need to be made whole again

Cleanse me, O God

Make my decisions

My heart pukes lies; it can’t be cured

And there’s no commanding it

Cleanse me, O God

I’m disgusted by my skin

I stained myself with the chemicals

I need to be washed white within

[Chorus]

And my heart is so depraved

And my mind is so depraved

And my body’s so depraved

And my soul is so depraved

And my heart is so depraved

And my heart is so depraved

[Verse 2]

Hear me, O God

I need You to listen

They said my old self died with You

But I’m just not seeing it

Save me, O God

Take my heart from me

My fetishes have soiled me

Could you shield me in your wing?

Save me, O God

It’s deep and I can’t swim

My throat is dry from crying out

And my eyes are growing dim

Tell me, O God

Are you on my side?

Tell me how you I’m son to you

And for me, you bled and died

[Chorus]

And my heart is so depraved

And my mind is so depraved

And my body’s so depraved

And my soul is so depraved

And my heart is so depraved

And my heart is so depraved

[Bridge]

Alive but I’m lying

My breath is synthetic

And it's not gonna change by

Vowing Scripture tenets… uh uh

Cause the truth is I don’t love you

We wouldn’t be here if that was true

I don’t know what my being profits you

Cause I’m pedantic and lazy

I let this world make me

Know what’s right but have no wills

Enslaved to pain and pleasure thrills

My body’s split within

I'm harshly limited

Jaded and obsessive…

Defensive, apathetic

All I ever stood for was only hypothetical

Fantasize about virtuous deeds that I’ll never do

Governed by my comfort

I’ve neglected all my brothers

All these unresolved dichotomies

I just want to be

Finished, self-sufficient

Isolated, validated

Biases perpetuated

Nothing short of dead

There’s a compass in my groin

And I follow where it points

Chips piled on my shoulders

Got vendetta with my culture

Self-pleading, self-pity

Self-excusing, selfish living

Self-serving, self-serving

Self, self, self, self, self

My heart is yoked to Baal

Set on achieving vain goals

Greedy and unfaithful

Given to what’s shameful

Obstinate contrarian

Mimicking my parents’ sins

Justify my narrative

And I’ve been here too long

[Outro]

Father, I’ve sinned

I can’t be called your son

You can keep your clothes and the fattened calf

Just reduce me to the drudge

I’ve tried on my own

I’m still the same species

If I shed my tears before you

Would you hear them hit your feet?

Mercy, O God

I’m sick and I should die

I’ve used you for your benefits

And I can’t lift up my eyes

God, I believe

Help my unbelief

The ones with no inheritance

They sound a lot like me