Released on January 10, 2020

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[Chorus]

And I’m trying to be nice but I am tired of the sugarcoated

Candy you would feed me just to make sure I was happy

With a blue sky and a blackout frame

Illusions that you felt the same

And I don’t think you miss me

I think you miss the thought

And that’s all that counts


[Post-Chorus]

La-da, da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da

La-da, da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da

La-da, da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da

La-da, da-da-da


[Verse 1]

Let’s take it back to all the times you said you missed me

When I knew that you were drunk and all alone

Or when you’re out 'til all hours of the night with people I don’t even know (Hey, who was that anyways?)

And you wish you knew what words to say to leave the past behind

But my self-esteem is withering and you don’t seem to mind


[Chorus]

And I’m trying to be nice but I am tired of the sugarcoated

Candy you would feed me just to make sure I was happy

With a blue sky and a blackout frame

Illusions that you felt the same

And I don’t think you miss me

I think you miss the thought

And that’s all that counts


[Post-Chorus]

La-da, da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da

La-da, da-da-da


[Verse 2]

There’s no logic explanation, hooked on you like medication

Empty words of affirmation fill the void (Fill the void)

And all this self-depreciation gives me heavy hesitation

But I wouldn’t want you to feel annoyed (I'm so annoyed)

And your friends will nag and whine and say that I’m not worth the time of day (Your friend)

So I’ll just fake a smile so that my mom thinks I’m okay


[Chorus]

And I wish that you were nice so I'll keep eating all the sugarcoated

Candy you would feed me just to make sure I was happy

With a blue sky and a blackout frame

Illusions that you felt the same

And I don’t think you miss me

I think you miss the thought

And that’s all that counts


[Bridge]

So I sit and I wait

For that call that never came

I need you out, out of my head

So I can finally go to bed

Without these thoughts, of how it’s fucked

To feel like this

It’s all my fault, it’s all my fault

It’s all my fault, it’s all my fault


[Chorus]

And I’m trying to be nice but I am tired of the sugarcoated

Candy that you'd feed me 'cause I want you to be happy

With a blue sky and a blackout frame

Illusions that you felt the same

And I don’t think you miss me

And I’m trying to be nice but I am tired of the sugarcoated

Candy you would feed me just to make sure I was happy

With a blue sky and a blackout frame

Illusions that you felt the same

And fuck you, you don't miss me

You only miss the thought

And that’s all that counts


[Outro]

Whatever man