Where do I start

Maybe last year

When you got your heart broken

You didn’t listen to her thoughts

Cause you viewed her as a token

Now you know That's cap

Because you loved her mind

You loved her soul

And damn she was fine

It taught me a lesson

On what I really wanted

I’m glad I got to know her

I’m glad that we bonded

Why you still bringing her up

You been moved on

You been doing better

And your still going strong

Even tho that you loved her

Sometimes you would wonder

Why you ended up with someonе

That wasn’t from this world

Maybe that’s what I need

Someone from outеr space

Cause I’ll take it as blessing

Do I need to say my grace

A toxic type of person

You really don’t wanna be

So you almost took your life

Had ma crying on her knees

What’s funny that I came clean to her dad

Because at the end of it all

I’m his number one fan

Because on that day

I almost took my life

I saw a smile on his face

It was warm and so bright

It made me realize

That maybe life worth living

Because I wanna grow old

Play with my grandchildren

Maybe rose was right

Maybe my heart is dark

Or maybe I’ll take knife

And make it hella sharp

Slice a piece of myself

Watch the river flow down my hand

Ignore the fucking pain

Suck it up why cause I’m a man

I don’t know

Why I said these things

I don’t understand

Maybe I need help

Maybe I need death

Whatever the outcome

Will be my last fucking breathe

Why am I so fixated

On taking my own life

Cause I’m not scared of death

I know I won’t put up a fight

I’ll just accept things

Because sometimes it won’t change

Other times crave your path

And let world rearrange

Let’s move on from this topic

Talk about some fake people

That will claim to be your friend

But don’t see you as an equal

They only take what they can

Then toss you to side

They don’t care about your feelings

Cause they got too much pride

But then get mad at you

When you distance yourself

But will still come to you

When they only need help

Life isn’t really what seems

People hiding who they are

Behind their screens

Life is just a dream

Humans are mindless robots

Without a thought or care