Disconnected

By Nardean

On Creatress

Released on May 9, 2018

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He said “i love the way you’re disconnected

I could tell you’re broken by the way our lips connected”

I told him “i could tell you’re misdirected

By the way you disrespected me

You focus your attention on all this tension

Always tensing, flexing

Never learn your lesson

Plus, our pain presented in different methods

That doesn’t lessen the fact that we were still reflections

I can only promise you a message

I’ve been channeling your higher self and showering you in blessings

But your games are getting testing

Had an opportunity, but you went ahead and messed it

And truthfully i’ve come to expect it

You turned me into you, too numb to be effected

So i pretend i’m cool calm centered and collected, connected, perfected

Take god’s medicine and inject it

But you seem to like the poison

So your veins they reject it

You seem to like the poison

So your veins they reject it”

I get high, get high, get high

Off what i, what i, what i

Cannot ever seem to fix

I love the way you’re broken

I love the way you’re broken

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I love the way you shut me out

I can tell you numbed your pain by the weight you carry round

Night and day and by the way

I can hear those voices you’ve got running round

Asking me to come around just to hunt and shoot me down

Misleading me with missing pieces

Like “baby could you please just shield me from the weather?”

So you skinned me, and wore me like leather

So i could hold you all together

I can only promise you what’s relevant

But we couldn’t mix, two different elements, experiment for the hell of it

And i expected it

The last time you called, i should have just rejected it

Still tried to make you trust again

But I answer and you’re like … “baby i’m numb again, baby i’m numb again”

So i fumble for my phone and let you get it off your chest

And now you’re mourning, “I’m sorry gorgeous

It's not you, it's more just i’m falling, could you catch me?

Unlatch me from my own chains?

I mean, i’ve got the key

It's only me stopping me, but i like to see you’re helping me

And telling me, you’re loving me, is kinda motherly

And mama wasn’t overly affectionate

So i’ll take what i can get”

I get high, get high, get high

Off what i, what i, what i

Cannot ever seem to fix

I love the way you’re broken

I love the way you’re broken

I get high, get high, get high

Off what i, what i, what i

Cannot ever seem to fix

I love the way you’re broken

I love the way you’re broken

I tackle it with grace, trace the scars through your past hurt

Turn it into artwork, make the broken parts work

But i put your heart first, so your mark hurt

Turned heartless, i’m floating

In rivers of your blood

Drowning in your wounds

I lost myself cause i was selfless

And you

You’re selfish