(Chorus)

Too many tears, too many many scars

It honestly feels, like I'm tearing apart

I don't wanna be alive

I just wanna say goodbye

(Verse 1)

I slowly

Walk to my momma’s room, she's crying to sleep

Tears running down her cheeks I haven't seen her in weeks

She doesn't see me.. Her tears made the floor wet, I kiss her on the forehead

Like she did to me at night before bed

I'm sittin’ on the floor next to her bed and go to look

Under it and discover this o-old dusty photo book

I flip it, flashes of memories of the past

Pictures of me growing up fast, I even see my dad

Him and I having breakfast.. That's all I’ll remember him for, cuz I was about four when he left us

Fuck him, now I'm nowhere.. Just like my father

If he didn't want me man then why the fuck should I bother?!

I need my mom but I lost her, can't hear my voice when I call her

I don't understand.. What the hell is going on here?

I'm off the, floor now I'm headed to Benson

The only friend I had in school but doesn't know that I'm missing

But who the fuck am I kidding? Did he actually listen or was he only there cuz I’m an addict that had some prescriptions

I have no one to visit..

I'm just walking around, I was bullied everywhere but I felt lost in this town

I head to this alley way, I can't believe what I found

I finally see my body just lying dead on the ground

It's hard to bare but..nobody was there for me!

Nobody cared for me!! This life's unfair to me the only thing there would be..

(Chorus)

Too many tears, too many many scars

It honestly feels, like I'm tearing apart

I don't wanna be alive

I just wanna say goodbye

(Verse 2)

Lookin’ over my body, I'm not sad for a minute

Good riddance you bastard, I'm fucking glad that you did it

Something you actually finished, there's nothing I’m missin’

Of abuse, poverty, and sickness I'm no longer a victim

Shit, I see someone running towards me screamin’

Checking to see if I'm breathin’

Haha, I’ma start leavin’

I hear an ambulance speedin’, I walk away from that block

I'm shocked, I really thought that I would lay there and rot

I walk, to Benson’s and I'm surprised that he's up

It's 3:51 AM and he keeps on calling me up

He’s worried as fuck… Wow, someone answered

The look in his face and his stammer

Is what Inside made me shatter - I mattered

Cuz he was crying at the top of his lungs

I was standing there anxious to witness what was to come

His parents asked him what's wrong.. And that's when I died

He said “the only friend I ever had committed suicide”...

(Chorus)

Too many tears, too many scars

I honestly felt, like I was falling apart

I just wanna be alive

I don't wanna say goodbye