Ever since I lost you

I've been trying to dream

Of something better

Though it seems impossible to do

When you embody the essence

Of a fire in december

How am I to get better

When my heart is on a tether

Every time i go out

I can smell you on my sweater

I don't want to go on

If we'll never be together

I just want to die

Replay our memories forever

Cuz without you I am nothing

This life means nothing

Your pulling on my heart strings

And running

Cut the line please

Ever since I lost you

I've been trying to dream

Of something better

Though it seems impossible to do

When you embody the essence

Of a fire in december

Is this real

Or is it a dream

I can't tell

But it would seem

The more I care

It becomes a nightmare

I've been going through hell

Counting these sheep

Maybe when I die

I'll wake up

Laying next to you

No makeup

I may have high hopes

For the breakup

But

I'm just trying

To keep my head up

Cuz what if i die

And there is really nothing after this life

Maybe i'm the only thing that exists

If thats the case then why do i try

Ever since I lost you

I've been trying to dream

Of something better

Though it seems impossible to do

When you embody the essence

Of a fire in december