Been lying to myself and others for ten years

Thinking that if I had only managed to keep it up for one more year

I would have maybe gotten through with it

Who am I kidding?

And now I am paying the price

That I secretly wished for:

A shot to the heart

That tore me to pieces

Bleeding my lies onto the cold floor

As it is pressing itself against my face

I am the last one in the waiting room

And they are calling another name

And now I am trapped in this place

That smells like suffocation

No expertise or skill or experience or wisdom

Can help me now

There is only one thing

That can put me back together, right?

Please, I swear I am going to change