Note to Self - Intellectual

[Verse 1: Jake Ewald]

Holt's above my hideout

I dug this hole beneath the floorboards

Buzzing bad and locked in

Try to not recall

Counting numbered days

From the wheel we cried to clutch

Looking for some inspired land

But all I found were empty cans and cigarette butts

Lining dirty parking lots in Ottawa

(Glazed eyes, trying to rub away at the sketches of the...)

Daytime

When every second of sun's the same

What's the point of staying awake?

Your hands are out, and I see

You're asking me for a vowel

But I am weak, and I am stubborn

So I'll say "This is all I have right now"

But I want to make something good

I want to make something better

Something that cannot leave the ground

Unless we lift it up together

Where I want to be still seems a thousand miles away

But pretending we feel safe right here gets harder every day

It's a note to self, mislaid

You ain't the words you always used to say

There will be no more fucking around today

Drunk and worthless, spewing bullshit

All across the stage

Wake up, and we find new hiding places

Trying desperately to escape the glare

From our stupid, spineless words

Just whining (I don't believe you)

Every fucking day (You're all the same)

What do I really want to say?

Where I want to be still seems a thousand miles away

But pretending we feel safe right here gets harder every day

It's a note to self, mislaid

You ain't the words you always used to say

There will be no more fucking around today