Released on July 16, 2020

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(Verse 1)

Back in 2016 I thought I was struck with illness

Went to seek out a specialist who was truly brilliant

Doctor said it was mental no surgery could heal it

If it’s all in my mind how come I really feel it

This anxiety it’s been rioting in ya system

It’s been like this for decades we musta missed the symptoms

Gave me medicine I was hesitant to start poppin

Momma Warned me that once you start could be hard to stop it

Warnin label contained uh table uh side effects

There's a chance I could take a cable and hang to death

Think it’s worth it my brain is hurtin I need the pills

I’m too young to be googlin how to make a will

3 weeks later I feel like I wanna end my life

I no longer feel human I know I’m not alright

I would hurt myself if I could find the right utensils

Maybe I can make physical pain distract from mental

(Chorus)

This a darkness that will follow me wherever I go

Pain is sharper than a tac and it’s attacking my soul

This a darkness that will follow me wherever I go

Feel like I’m stuck in this woe, I’m stuck in this woe x2

(Verse 2)

I Feel like Kendrick in “U”

I think I might be psycho

This is suckin life outta me I’m not talkin Lypo

If this pain is remainin wit me I think I might go

Crazy God ur amazing so please just tell me why won’t

You just end this by sendin a way to cure my sickness

I been faithful at least I’m tryin you know I get this

Urge to sin but Im workin to be a better Christian

Yes I mess up a lot but I know you give remission

Maybe this is a punishment for my evil actions

That’s the case then I understand that this had to happen

I deserve to be servin this sentence ain’t no passin

Every action has opposite n equal reaction

I believe we receive the energy we put out

I been hateful and disrespectful I cannot doubt

In return is anxiety n depression now

This a test n I’ll learn a lesson but don’t know how

(Chorus)

This a darkness that will follow me wherever I go

Pain is sharper than a tac and it’s attacking my soul

This a darkness that will follow me wherever I go

Feel like I’m stuck in this woe, I’m stuck in this woe x2

(Verse 3)

Take a pill every mornin that’s how I still get by

Mental health used to seem like fiction but now I cry

I got prollems I cannot solve em I just endure

Tryna keep myself sane is such a difficult chore

I’m maintainin this broken brain n it’s taught me lessons

Life is challengin still I’ve been given several blessings

Ima pray that my mental state will someday improve

If it doesn’t I’ll keep on fightin to make it through