Sometimes Lyrics

[Verse]

Sometimes I laugh at myself so I can stay sane

Sometimes I cut my arm so I can numb the pain

Take a bottle to the head

Bullet to the brain

I ain’t at that step yet

But any day

Sometimes I cry in the rain so people don’t ask

What is wrong

What’s the problem

Why you so sad

I just brush it off and say nothing

I’m good dad

I just forgot my umbrella

I am not sad

I’m looking good but on the inside

I wanna fucking die

Take the rope and put that shit round my neck and jump from the sky

Cause these stupid fucking kids always making fun of my eyes

And my hair

And my looks

They making fun of my life

They making fun of my struggles and beat me up cause it’s fun

Every time they bruise me

I wish that I had a gun

Let off a couple of rounds

I see bodies hitting the ground

Enjoying the fucking sound

You running but I have won

That’s that columbine shit

And I don’t give a fuck bitch

If I’m empty

I’m a pull with some more chop sticks

Lock and loaded

Pop shit

Reload it

I won’t quit

Until these bullies on they knees and praying I won’t spit

Yeah sometimes I like to dream

Sometimes I wanna scream

Sometimes I wanna live like a person that’s not me

And that’s the fucking reason I’m hiding behind the screens

Technology is beauty

I wish I was a machine

Feeling no pain

And no emotions

I’ll never open

I know I’m broken

But this bully shit is fucking hopeless

I know you notice

They’re fucking soulless

I can not focus

I think I need therapy but that shit is bogus

But fuck it

I’m a put on a fake smile

Every day and every night

Do it for a while

Go to school and get bullied

Come home and still smile

I don’t need help I promise

Don’t you see the smile

Don’t you see the joy

I’m a happy little boy

I ain’t crying like a bitch and plotting shit to destroy

I’m just living like a toy

No feelings all plastic

Sometimes I feel like Harry Potter

But without the magic

Ain’t this shit tragic

I’ve been praying like a catholic

But god has never answered my blessings

I’m in a panic

Every single year I’ve been praying but never got shit

Now I’m just a fucking punching bag for these dip shits

Now I’m just a hollow human being in this fucking place

Whether it’s raining or not

Tears are rolling down my face

I just wanna replace

All my fucking mistakes

Maybe even blow my brains out with an a-k

Sometimes I feel so close the edge I might jump

Sometimes I feel like running away like Forrest Gump

Sometimes I wanna stare dead center in the barrel

See the fucking bullet that’s gone make me slump

Yeah sometimes I wanna pull it

Sometimes I wanna do it

Sometimes I wanna write my fucking will and just end it

But other times

I just look up and see the light

But sadly

That is only sometimes

My God