Mama’s first born son

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Crooked gap tooth smile

And a loaded gun

After the twist of fate

Taught me to hate

Contemplate ways

Toward greater survival rate

Survive not thrive

Has been the goal my whole damn life

New dreams shattered

Mentally scattered

Searching for a reason to carry on

Can I carry on like this?

Sisyphus

Nailed to a crucifix

I admit-

I’m lost

It’s my time on the cross

But at what cost?

My faith lost to the sands of time

Crime of life became my life of crime

This isn’t what you wanted for me

But this might be the only way for me to be free

Sorry Mama

You know it’s true

What can I do?

It’s my destiny to die too

Don’t shed a tear

Cause I ain’t happy here

Rather die on my feet now than live life slave to the fear

I can’t pretend it’s all bad

But the bad only gets worse

Take from me all I ever had

Until my turn in the hearse

Mama’s first born son

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Mama’s first born son…

Crooked gap tooth smile and a loaded…

Another brick in the road

Guide us back to the devil’s throne

I won’t atone

For the crimes of those

Abused as a child

When they’re fully grown

Now your monster is fully grown