VERSE 1:

Beginning and ending, I’ll tell you a story

I was like Kanye chasin’ the glory

I had a dream but I couldn’t afford it

Put it on mute but I couldn’t ignore it

Back as a kid I would color with crayons

Power of purpose inside of my hand

Feeling of freedom like birds in the wind

Lines were a guide I couldn’t fit in

Grew up some more then went off to school

At the top of my class but I felt like a fool

In my head they all said I was destined to lose

If I knew what I know, wouldn’t focus on you

Took off the cap and the gown, “I’m a failure.”

Let down myself, my parents and Savior

Am I the problem? observe my bеhavior

Dug myself deep in a hole like a cratеr

Shit didn’t work out so I went to work

Couple of years I was burdened with hurt

Planted like seeds, feelin’ dead in the dirt

I thought I was done, didn’t go back to church

Just playin’ 2K in the basement

Nobody knew what I was facin’

Convinced I spent my life wasted

My heart was filled with self-hatred

Took out my phone and I typed in my notes

Went to the store and I bought me a rope

Took a deep breath I was gaspin’ for hope

One step from my death, I was ready to go

But somehow something stopped me

From a date with a damn autopsy

That’s a long ass way to say I’ve been through hell

Shouldn’t be alive, tried to kill myself

HOOK:

So if this here’s my swan song

Will you play this when I’m long gone?

Take a breath before my death

And I just pray that it won’t last long

So if this here’s my swan song

Will you play this when I’m long gone?

Take a breath before my death

And I just pray that it won’t last long

VERSE 2:

Wonderin’ where I go from here

Started out therapy now I’m aware of me

Still I had to face my fears

Embrace all the tears in the years they were scarin’ me

I had to get out the way (Way)

Didn’t care what anyone would say

All that I knew was that shit had to change

Did it myself, become friends with the pain

Found joy in a rock and a hard place

Some songs helped me heal from the heartache

Kept workin’ somedays didn’t take breaks

I did it for you and my namesake

I was dancin’ with death, doin’ the tango

Dreamin’ of breathin’ this fire like Rango

Wrestled with God, sparrin’ with angels

90 degrees tryna find the right angle

Depth of field, had to find my focus

Dull days, wondered what the point is

The torch is tatted yeah I’m still anointed

This talent’s tough but you don’t gotta notice

Fuck a diploma, did it all sober

Gave it my all, I don’t do mediocre

I’m dancin’ my way up the steps like the Joker

Back then I was livin’ alone like Yoda

Took off my mask in the back had to face it

Me, myself, and I thoughts speed racin’

Used to have friends talk down on my greatness

Now they take shots and I don’t even chase it

Fell on my knees now I’m back on my feet

Wore my heart on my sleeve then dropped an EP

Two albums later, still fresh on the scene

And I’m not givin’ up ’til I’m touchin’ the peak

HOOK:

So if this here’s my swan song

Will you play this when I’m long gone?

Take a breath before my death

And I just pray that it won’t last long

So if this here’s my swan song

Will you play this when I’m long gone?

Take a breath before my death

And I just pray that it won’t last long

OUTRO:

The real world is a lonely and depressing place

One where purpose is on eternal backorder, while suffering is in the palm of your hand

Yet deep inside our elastic hearts of flesh and blood, we’re all searching for something

Now from my finite perspective of pain and plasma, it seems to be closer than it appears

The real world is many things: difficult, cruel, unrelenting

So unrelenting

But it’s also beautiful

Full of new wonder and mercy every morning

Creation and revolution

Imagination and evolution

Endless opportunity simply because you exist