VERSE 1:

Took my first breath the day Diana laid to rest

So legends never die, we just multiply (multiply)

I’ve seen shit in my life, I never would have guessed

So let me reminisce on vivid simple times

Back when I’d play with Legos, hasta luego

Say goodbye to my innocence, hello to fucking payroll

Nowadays I’d trade it all, even trips to Turks and Caicos

Just so I’d forget what I know

I thought my parents were perfect, and my heart would never break

I thought 10:00 was latе but now I stay up every day

Had a smile on my facе but something took it’s place

I guess it’s safe to say that times have changed

Can we stay a little longer? in nine from ninety seven?

It’s the first day of third grade, scared to get detention

Time for roll call in class, wide awake, barely present

I’m so tired of repeating all these lessons

Went from nursery rhymes to sixteens, nightmares to big dreams

From packed lunch to packed up for a flight across the sea

Still I hear this voice from when I played make believe

So I’m tryna find that part of me that’s lost

I’ve spent my whole damn life, running from my youth

But I left something back there and deep down I know it’s true

I guess that’s what I’m chasin’ when I step in to the booth

Who would’ve thought I’d become friends with a noose?

I’ve learned time passed isn’t always time wasted

But sometimes you grow up way faster than you wanted

So I’m tryna take it slow, step away from all the drama

Go on TikTok less and talk more with my Momma

I think I’m finally healing, I’m becoming less numb

These tired legs no longer have to run, have to run

So I wrote this open letter to Michelle and Glenn’s son

Dear Matthew, I hope you’re proud of who I’ve become

Dear child

It’s ok

Come closer

I promise

I won’t

Lose you, again

INTERLUDE:

Happy birthday, dear Matthew and Joshua

Happy birth

VERSE 2:

All the trauma that I’ve been through

Hits harder when the rent’s due

All my memories, 12 and under

I’m still eatin’ off that menu

Who am I kiddin’? I’m winnin’

But somehow it ain’t enough

This right here’s an August night

But it feels like the summer’s up

Got regrets that I’ve been facin’

Plus some dreams I’m scared of chasin’

All this bread that I’ve been breakin’

Got me Indiana pacin’

Remember Kiddie College plans?

Now I’m the man

Back then I’d draw with crayons

Needed my dad to hold my hand

But then I started to grow up

And you never seemed to show up

So maybe I’ll stop at Target

And buy me some Crayolas

Throwin’ back a glass of apple juice

For tears that I’ve fought

Then I’m pourin’ out the bottle

For all the dreams that I’ve lost

I was an artist back then

But it was pure

I’m tryna get back to that place

But I can’t find the words

I’m fightin’ all these feelings

And changes deep in my soul

But it never hits the same, I’m so afraid

And I just wanna go back

Sing for me, Momma

One more time

Sing for me, Momma

Pretty please

I’ll sing for you, Momma

I’ll sing for you, Momma

Hold me like those good old days

The ones that feel so far away

Hold me like those good old days

When you were only a call away