[Chorus]

I said I wonder when it'll be my day

'Cause I'm not too far from breakin' down

All I've got are screams inside

But somehow they come out in a smile

And I'm wonderin' if I'll always feel this way, this way

[Verse 1]

The cross is heavy, what a burden

Am I crazy, Tyler Durdin

Don't get better, seem to worsen

I don't even know this person

In the mirror I hate my sight

Two more Oxy, sleep tonight

From fun to habit, gotta have it

Alcoholic and an addict

This is tragic need some magic

I'm insane my thoughts are static

Full throttle, hit the bottle

Pride and ego, date a model

Drunk as hell, stagger wobble

Eat them pills, gobble gobble

Shake off mornin' panic attack

Will I find my way back?

Needle in a haystack

Someone pass the "J" back

Numb the pain, all the time

Can't believe I wrote this rhyme

It's my secret, this is mine

I'm sick of jail and doin' time

On my knees, God take my life

Insanity cuts me like a knife

Ain't got the strength, to even fight

Can't take the pain, not tonight

I keep a smile, inside I crumble

Every way I turn, I stumble

I need you, but I hate you

I need some kind of breakthrough

I sit in tears can't take it now

I live in Hell I'm breakin' down!

[Chorus]

I said I wonder when it'll be my day

'Cause I'm not too far from breakin' down

All I've got are screams inside

But somehow they come out in a smile

And I'm wonderin' if I'll always feel this way, this way

[Verse 2]

Wakin' up, my blood is itchin'

Scared to death, who is snitchin'?

I feel like hell, look at my health

It's sad, when you can't trust yourself

I pushed my Dad, and stole from mama

Entire life is made of drama

All pretend they ain't my friends

Empty funeral if this all wins

Trapped in a maze, shit I give up

Runnin' in place, feet are stuck

Things I've done, I'm so embarrassed

Pawned the things, that I most cherish

Search all day, for what I need

Who grow's up and dreams to be a fiend

My demeanor's mean, my eyes are green

I trade my soul, for one more bean

My friends are dyin' am I the sequel

After pills then comes the needle

So much stress the pills stop workin'

I'm always shakin' my bodies hurtin'

Can't forget I got to mention

Anger, anxiety, some depression

Delirium tremors, I can die!

Hallucinate with open eyes

30 pack every single night

I've given up, don't even fight

I make up lies like "I'm in school"

Lyin' to myself, who's the fool?

Before my daughter and Mini Thin

I heard a voice say. "Jason listen

I love you son and you are missed

My name is Jesus, remember this"

[Chorus 2]

Maybe you have fallen down

And maybe you just took the long way home

But baby you could never love you, like me

And one day, this will fade away

In the mirror you'll see your smiling face

And standing next to you, will always be me, yeah me

[Bridge]

If you end up prayin' I surrender

All the pain I can't remember

Shit, my bad, it's not my fault

I do the work, I trust results

Not my co-pilot ask which seats

Not why I put these phones on beats

If Mini can do this, so can you

First to verse 2002

[Chorus 3]

Tell me about those nights, you stayed awake

Tell me about those days you hated me

Tell me how you'd rather die alone, than being stuck here with me

Then you're going to see things my way

You gave me so much room, that I can't breathe

Tell me about those nights, you stayed awake

Tell me about those days you hated me

Tell me how you'd rather die alone, than being stuck here with me

Then you're going to see things my way

You gave me so much room, that I can't breathe