I put my baggage in a little box every night

Fuck around until i've gotten my needs filled

But i'm alright if you ask me

So now i'm playing pretend that i am happy

When i'm with friends

So they don't desert me cause i'm a gigantic fucking bummer

Is it wrong to say

That i'm better off this way?

Feeling awful every morning

And then ok in the night

Cause at least

I'll feel relief

Even if it has to come from pain, and

Things change

Or stay the same

Or temporarily change and then change back

And if you paid for this get your change back

That's why it's ok

That i just mope and sleep all day

I have no hope i have no skills

And i don't wanna play this game

And i am seven again

Found a stash of pokémon cards and played it with friends

My buddies all started playing magic again

And i am genuinely happy i don't need to pretend

It feels wrong to say

That i'm better off this way

I am genuinely happy

You don't really do the same

Stay friends

Play pretend

Even if it's not a good idea

Things change

Or stay the same

Or temporarily change and then change back

And if you paid for this get your change back

Things change or stay the same

No matter what i do i cannot affect a single fucking thing