I gave a girl everything I had to give

Money I didn’t have

Time i couldn’t waste

When she lost her peace, found it, and dragged it back to her

I showed her another side of the world without ever leaving the city

She told me that I was so kind

And so sensitive

That we would fall in love

But after a few months, we had a falling out

I decided it was best that we didn’t talk anymore

In response to this

She told me that I was possessive

That I fall in love too easily;

And I’m too sensitive

And now I know what it means when they say that people will hate the very qualities they loved about you

And it will leave you unsure of yourself

You will wonder what changed, was it them

Or was it me?

You will question the value of I love you’s

After seeing how conditional love can be

Your first instinct will be to blame yourself

Because your love for this person will not want to allow you to blame them

It’s rare that people will admit to hurting you

Instead, They will frame you as being wrong

Convincing themselves that you are toxic in order to alleviate their own guilt

And if you have been kind them

Having little to pull from

They will have no option but to turn your better qualities against you

Your passion will be newly regarded as overwhelming

Your concern will be possessiveness

Your kindness will be naivety

And your love will be “too much”

But in regard to emotion

You cannot love too much

You can only love the wrong person

The more in tune you are with your emotions is the more human you will be

We weren’t given feelings to hide them away and numb ourselves. We were made to feel

It’s how we interact with everything around us

It’s how we remind ourselves we’re alive

So I resent the idea of being too sensitive

Because in a world continually growing colder

People will try to rob you of your warmth

But we need vulnerability

We need people who embrace their own feelings and recognize the weight of them

So we can begin to see validity in the feelings of others

I resent the idea that I need to change

To harden myself in order to survive in this world

Maybe the world is what needs changing

We try to convince ourselves that our minds set precedence over the things we feel

As if we can turn off our emotions function off logic alone

We always lose

Because we are not machines

We are human beings

And what sets us apart from an assortment of codes and numbers

Is our ability to find balance between logic and intuition

So I will not change

I will be too sensitive

And because you can’t find it within yourself to appreciate me

Doesn’t mean I’ve lost my worth