[Chorus]

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

[Verse 1]

A rebel birthed by life

The devil earned his dice

To control, twist and turn me

They gotta pay a visit to my gurney

I’ve been strugglin’ with my mind

Questionin’ what i have done this time

I’m tired of drawin’ that line

I’m runnin’ out of time

I beat myself up for your mistakes

Haven’t heard “sorry” since the last past 4 Mays

You’d be more amazed, to learn i got door chased

Where do you go whеn no one loves you?

They makе up faces and fibs enough to

Care, it’s all fake cryin’ then they shove you

Into a pit, put any and everythin’ above you

Maybe i haven’t grown

Or maybe i’m better off on my own

I don’t wanna be in this home

A tormenting warzone, all alone

There’s no winnin’, i get it

They sinnin’, and i did it

Your husband left to pursue his delusions

I’m sorry, can’t find the conclusions

You told me that you wanted to die

Kill yourself because of me, at the age of 5

But by then i was more traumatized

But i can’t tell you that, won’t in my life

The ties, i won’t lie, sewn up get worsen

I love you as a mom, but fuckin’ hate you as a person

All my family, i got grudges on ‘em

They did mistakes, even then, it wasn’t ok

I was a broken condom

They cared enough to say some stuff

Even if it was a bluff, i still felt loved

I was a curse

I was talked by the Devil when i was birthed

You made me this way

You created the pain

You dated that lame

And now i’m faded in the flames

I have these thoughts that are scary

Emotional baggage, so much to carry

You’re my mom, not my mother

You about to walk in on me

Like you did with- ** *******

I have 100 scars, 100 knifes

100 carts and 100 swipes

On my wrist, near my eyes

On my arms, on my thighs

Will you love me then?

Will you lie?

Will you hurt me?

Will i die?

Will you birth me

In your life?

Have you heard me

When i try?

You don’t care

And i don’t care

I stopped trying ever since that incident

‘Cause of you, i’m in this predicament

You’re my 1st reason why

So if you see me with a knife

Or a chair, gun, blade

Askin’ why

I’ll apparently say “it’s my life”

I’ll do it for attention, right?

I come to you with my problems

And all we do is fight

It’ll be revenge suicide

‘Cause i want you to see me die

I hope it fuckin’ hurts

I hope it fuckin’ burns

You’ve been there for me more than him but

Somehow you was worse

Feels like a fuckin’ curse

I hate myself so i purge

So when they put me in a hearse

Tell ‘em ******** did it first

Mothafucka!

[Chorus]

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

[Verse 2]

It’s a milestone or maybe i was wrong

I’ve been debatin’ on makin’ this song

First verse i wrote we was fightin’

I couldn’t take the pain no more

And i started writin’

But that’s not all to it, there’s more

I wish you knew how much i love you to my core

We don’t talk like we used to

Even though we live under the same roof

I hope you don’t think i used you

‘Cause deep down, that wouldn’t be the truth

I’m just alone and afraid

Fragile, torn and frayed

I’m sorry for talkin’ back, that day, when i was stubborn

And i was talkin’ smack, past ways, like i was southern

But i just hope we can get through it together

I want to say “best mom” forever

In my eyes, you’re trapped in your mind

And in your eyes, i’m trapped in time

But i can’t rewind

I admit some part of it was meant for the rhymes

But other parts, was from my heart

And it went to lines

I just hope we can get to the terms

That being broke and left fuckin’ burns

You say you’re here but i’m concerned

‘Cause you put me down in return

They can recite this at my trial

‘Cause i’ll be there for a while

I’ll kill any man who make you cry

I’ll slice their throat then watch ‘em die

I’ll burn in hell with ‘em and laugh

Then i’ll rip them in half

They gonna see memories playback

When they think of hittin’ you

Ain’t that some payback

I’ll take that as a yes

Laid back in a maybach with a guest

And take a guess on who that is

It’s the only person i’ll trust when i’m rich

It’s the only person who will give

Anythin’ up just for me to live

And you deserve that title

And i don’t deserve to spiral

And i know my note will be vital

‘Cause y’all don’t know a bitch was suicidal

And mom, i didn’t mean that

And mom, i hope you didn’t see that

Mom, i feel real bad

Call, to tell ‘em ima pay the bill back

Uh, when i grow up, ima be a real dad

Somethin’ i’d kill to have

Raise the bar for my son

Spoil him ‘cause he deserves the love

And you’ll be his grandma

Take the torch from Mamawl

I love you, hope you heard that

Eternal bliss, yea, you deserve that

[Chorus]

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no

And i don't want your pretty love, no no