[Intro: Kayli Mills]

But then you grow up to be gorgeous

Give handouts for it, your parents get divorced

Your friends move away, you need drugs

And money, and money for drugs and-

Are these excuses or justifications?

You tell me

I told myself i was a sex worker

Not lazy, pathetic, desperate

A “Sex worker”

‘Sex Worker’ felt a lot better than ‘a whore’

But it didn’t change the reality-

Reality is, i was just another stupid whore

I was a dumb, stupid, fucking whore

So laugh all you want

Forget about me all you want

But at least i’ll be gorgeous forever

(forever, forever, forever)

[Verse 1]

You make songs to cope but it’s fuckin’ offbeat

It was your dreams you hoped for but now it’s your hobby

You can’t handle the criticism now you gettin’ sloppy

“Unique style”?, yea, you’re more than just a copy

You’re a cocky, bitchass fuckin’ prick

You can’t stop me, ‘cause you’re a lil ass bitch

Everythin’ you say in a song is fuckin’ cringe

And apparently 300 cals to you is a binge

Can’t attack yourself publicly so you do it in private

Look at a mirror cunningly, it was the one you was fightin’

You a fuck up, you a mess, yous a bitch, yous a wreck

You in a hitch, give it a rest, you a loner, get some friends

Fuck you Devyn, fuck your presence, no heaven, cursed since eleven

Fuck your existence, fuck your image

Fuck your blood, with yo family in it

Windows blacked out, tinted

Monster or Devyn, i can’t see the difference

If yo mom killed herself, it’s your fault and you know it

All those wrongs you did yourself, ego death and you’ll show it

Then you cut without them knowin’

Goddamn, fuck, i thought it was snowin’

From all this white you be blowin’

Wait no, snortin’, that’s the dope you be totin’

I can only hope you be copin’

With Robotussin

Turnin’ and fussin’ with no earnings

Cussing up a storm until you feel better

Now let the blood trinkle down, feel the real leather

You are not worth it, you are nothin’ but a speck of dirt

You the jack of all hate, a fuckin’ bitchass fuckin’ deck of hurt

Your uncle killed himself, you coulda stopped it

Now you’re lying in yo room

Askin’ “can i push the margin?”

Fuck you, fuck ya dreams

Deep down i know your tearing’ at the seems

Life long friends turn into foes

I look like a school shooter, yea you’re a hoe (hoe, hoe, hoe, hoe)

I will never admit i’m wrong

When i was born, God took a hit from a bong

Laced with PCP and acid

‘Cause how the fuck can i be born like this

And have 100 problems added

Freakish body, Anorexic

Cuts up and down, told me to text it

Apparently you’re scared of therapy, that’s funny

You can vent to random people online, you’re runnin’

From problems, you’re in denial and it’s pathetic

Sister gonna find you dead with paramedics

Scoffin’ down these painkillers, you’d think i have a headache

You’re attracted to agony, swear you’re fuckin’ magnetic

[Interlude]

It all aches, it hurts so much

My wrist, uh

My wrist

My stomach

Everything hurts, there's no relief

Painkillers don’t work

It makes it worse

[Verse 2]

Where's this motivation in you?

And why are you tryna find it?

Got no sort of patience, soon

Can’t you see i’m dyin’

You fuckin’ me up, man, i got a mom

Devyn, can’t you see?

You’re droppin’ fuckin’ bombs

I gotta be real man

Yous a real piece of shit

Can’t even average 10 views, ha, that’s the least you get

Every fuckin’ song it’s a pathetic attempt to explain

Everythin’ that’s wrong with you and your life and your pain

It feels like the entire world is against you, yea Devyn that’s right

Feel like that, then grab that fuckin’ knife

Carve “i’m pretty” in your thigh

Starve, no pity, motherfuck yo life

Charge into a city, full speed at night

Ever since the 1st grade, it’s been hell

Dreams, aspirations, is somethin’ you all fail

Chains on your feet, eternal darkness, jailed

You try to explain, your slow, you’re a snail

But everyone got a problem, that you can’t tell

Everyone in this world done gave you a chance

You blew it away, threw a fit and did a dance

Fuck this world, fuck you mostly, i’m in a trance

All these damn drugs done messed up yo pants

We get it, Devyn, yes, everyone else is dumb

You’re the only one right, no, you’re not numb

No, you did not dug your hole deeper, keep sayin’ it

Maybe it’ll change the way that you’re fuckin’ playin’ it

Dangerous, somethin’ you ain’t

You’re in your own world trapped in a different reality

Filled with hate

You’re nothin’ more than a follower

You can’t even speak yourself

Wanna be something?

Devyn, please don’t be yourself

Your entire life is a lie, cry me a river

“I tried to feed you but you didn’t after 5 dinners”

Sinners, born sinners

Satan, fuckin’ red hands, he the winner

I disappear through my camera lens

If the devil controls me, then i am him

Narcissistic, i can’t help to change

Endless loop, you’ll always be the same