We in a pandemic

But I see yall going to the medic

See you fired shots

But I ain’t got a pellet

To win a war you gotta

Lose some battles

Everytime I let myself down

Feel like I'm letting you down

Lost my mind for a bit

Falling apart what should I do

Investigating deeper within myself can't find a clue

Fake happiness in caps use to be my weekends, maybe thats why now I have so many demons

Get more anxious around my friends for no reason, started slipping away without seeing

Searching to find a meaning

Just need something to believe in

I need peace damn

I need peacе damn

Constant battles with my mind

Yes I'm lying if I said I was fine

So much darknеss the sun never shines

Build these wall up so high

I can't climb

The clock ticks faster and faster

Am I running out of time

How do I live with so much pain inside

Open my mouth, try to speak

The words won't come out

Now I Can Finally

Find my Peace

Yeah

And I’m Saying This So You Understand

It’s not Easy To Wake up in The Morning

Im Doing What I Can

The Light Side was Appealing

But The Dark side Made amends

It Provided me a Life

Of Greatness and A Friend

Have you ever seen light

In the nighttime

Have you ever seen dark

In the daytime

I ain’t even feel in long time

I just been stuck in a hard time

God I pray to you now

So I hope that you hear me

All of this fear and this pain that I'm feeling

I hope that you take it and hold it so dearly

I pray ever night for the lost and the hopeless

Suffocated cause their heart is so broken

Stuck in this house

Staring at the ceiling

These people hating but

They don’t know how I’m feeling

Suffering stuck inside

When I should be by your side

I’m sat here wanting more

When I should be healing

Go away

I dont need no friends today

I'm so used to your heartbreak

I know your love is fake

And I’ve had enough

Even though all of this is tough

Life is fast as time flies it feels like a blur

At times I feel vulnerable

I feel so insecure

Love is complicated

I always end up on being hurt

Life has lessons there’s something

That you’ll always learn

Open up the bottle

I’m downing it with the glass

Hoping that i won’t be hollow

Every time i laugh