I dedicate this one to Corey Perez

[Verse 1]

Yeah

How can I try and heal you when I am ill too

And i ain't talking skill sick i'm talking feel sick

Talking illness i'm talking realness

Talking i don't wanna be filmed so get that camera out my face

Yeah , i'm still here trying to heal the world

But i'm going through hell

And i ain't coping as well and if you feel me help

[Chorus]

It's hard when you wanna go home

But can't cos you wanna go hard

It's hard when you wanna go home

But can't cos you wanna help

Kill myself, just to heal but I need help too

Too oo oo too

I need help I need help I need help too

[Verse 2]

I was writing high when I was writing high

Because I heard you died and inside I cried

Like man damn I feel rough

I punched a wall my hands are still numb

How many times did I plan to call

The day I tried to cancer killed ya

The last pic you posted before you ghosted

Was you with one of your closest

It was one of my lyrics you quoted

I read the caption the sadness built up

My eyes just filled up

Even though we only chatted on Insta

I was too busy in my life trying to decide the filter

Like that's not what i had planned to do

I've been through madness too but i should've been there to talk Because my struggle ain't nothing compared to yours

[Chorus]

It's hard when you wanna go home

But can't cos you wanna go hard

It's hard when you wanna go home

But can't cos you wanna help

Kill myself just to heal but I need help too

Too oo oo too

I need help I need help I need help too

[Verse 3]

Got the message that you sent on Facebook

'Bout your boyfriend his strength's amazing

You still cherish every respiration

And keep going knowing that Death is waiting

The hospital said that the doc could save him

To god you pray, how have you got the patience

The doctor gave up they lost the patient

How can I not relate its my occupation

Lump in my throat as I read that note

P.S please help with an X and O

Even if you just flew here and said hello

It would mean the world, let me know

We ain't got that long left to go

I said I would be in my head I said I bet I won't

I think I better be Professional

I don't wanna promise you the world

When i'm a mess at home

But I know I gotta make an exception though

How can I tell her I ain't got the paper?

How can I tell her that I am piss poor?

And I can't afford a plane to Australia

How can I tell her that I ain't coping as well?

How can I pity myself when I open your mail?

How can I tell her I got no control of myself?

How can I tell her I feel like i'm trying to hold up the world?

How comes I can't phone you but I can phone up my girl?

My former self would be mortified so I tried to get in contact Before you died I told you we should do a facetime

I'm on tour and I hit you on the stage time

My head ain't right, told me keep your head high

That's advice, you saw a prophet in mans eyes

And if I was that guy I would've never let you down

Let you die without belling you instead of telling you now

[Chorus]

It's hard when you wanna go home

But can't cos you wanna go hard

It's hard when you wanna go home

But can't cos you wanna help

Kill myself just to heal but i need help too

Too oo oo too

I need help i need help i need help too