[Intro]

Yeah

Sometimes, I'm not sure if people really, fully, fully, understand

How, how close to the edge I get, G

This ain't just lyrics, dawg

[Verse1]

Lookin' back, now

I can clearly see, like a rearview mirror, exactly how

I push the people who mean the most, who come the closest right back out, back out, back out

My life black out these lights, I think I'll take a nap, now

And when I wake up, I'll make up with everyone who mad, now

[Verse 2]

But for now, I'm in Dream World

Shamu here, I'm in Sea World

Big fish in a small pond, while I'm at it, let's see how many girls

Hearts I can shatter into a million pieces

'Cause I'm a rock star, changin' timezones, ain't got no time for your feelings

[Verse 3]

Jesus, I need you to take the lead in me and delete in me

Whatever's keepin' me, from actin' decently

'Cause recently, I'm noticin' this beast in me

Is eatin' me alive, and I'm about to die, if you ain't bleepin' me

[Verse 4]

See, it be shit like that, the people see, and wanna beef with me

Like, oh, you hear his lyrics, I don't even think that he believe

God forbid, I take a minute to be honest and try my best

To express how much all the stress of this is griefing me

[Verse 5]

'Cause, I really don't know what it is or what it ain't, about me

But I promise you, this chasin' rich is gonna make you drowsy

So here it goes, time to admit, out loud, I been a lousy

Friend and a family member, ever since I headed down the

[Verse 6]

Path that I'm on, and I've been livin', like it never haunt me

Well, here it is, son of a bitch, I guess it finally caught me

Maybe, it's people in this business, that'd hang around me

Either way, whatever it is, somethin' done changed about me

[Verse 7]

'Cause, I used to be so full of love, now I'm just full of shit

Not all the time, 'cause when I'm jottin' rhymes, truth all you get

Other than that, I bottle it all up, turn the bottles up, while I swallow down

So now, I'm drunk, turn the volume up, while jottin' down

[Verse 7]

My feeling that I bury, 'til I make it to the top

But what's the point of makin' it there, if the top is all you got

For years, I pushed so many people to the background

Had tunnel vision, now, I see it and I want 'em back, now

[Verse 8]

I said, "I'm done", a hundred times, that's why life is one of one

I wrote a hundred rhymes, just to get one number one

And in the process, I forgot who really number one

I pushed my whole life to the background, look at what I've done

[Verse 9]

I said, "I'm done", a hundred times, life is one of one

I wrote a hundred rhymes, just to get one number one

And in the process, I forgot who really number one

Who really number one?