I try to breathe hoping I can see

Not trying drown in lies when God is all I believe

Love causes problems

Life line at the bottom

Been through childhood, trying to handle my teen years

In my eyes I represented fear

Look at me now and all you'll see is I don't care

Struggling and down my eyes are tears

Sick of seeing the fake happiness

And feeling real scared....

Its like no matter what it don't matter

Loved a girl named Christina

Saw her recently but her emotions got me sadder

She took a glance and hardly recognize

The little bit, she placed in this guy

Fuck it though, you my family, no

I've been following for so long

And your oscar show deserves a bravo

Amazing all the pain I caged in

So I cut and release, sharp as an asian

Dam I'm fading, from existence

Loving girls but wife types kept they distance

Sick of being lucky

The flu ignorance.....

I could probably be better

But I feel so much pressure

Like wearing a sweater in hot weather

A pirate searching years for treassure

This venting doesn't give me pleasure

How could you dare say you know me

When all you are is my homie

Said you down but hardly around

Thats why I'm always fucking lonely

Thanks a bunch

Doubt I'll enjoy my lunch

This is fucked up in so many ways

I started smoking again on the low

But Lydia said quit it right away

I just started listening

To that voice in the sky

Dad your so dam high

Wonder will God make me fly

And mama I' sorry I've been a dumb guy

I cry in the dark

Because I swear in the light of things

I lost, I'm lost in the dark