Missing Out - Intellectual

) , Hawke talks of discovering hot coals in dried leaves near her mother’s house in New York:
“It was licking at the sides of our mother’s old wooden farmhouse, it would have gone up like a tinderbox. It was really intense. And we may or may not have been on hallucinogenic mushrooms."

Most likely an allusion to Hawke’s parents Ethan Hawke and Uma Thurman who also work in Hollywood, and therefore an acknowledgement of the suggestions of nepotism that have followed Hawke her whole career.

Some people wish that people cared enough to stop them from doing dangerous or concerning things. Some people even remember as a child they wished something bad would have happened to them so they could get the attention. This line seems to be about the same or a similar thing.

She talks about how she’s always been out there due to her parents' publicity and fame, and she expresses here that she just wants to be someone you would normally talk to, not as an artist or anyone different.

In an interview (

Maya Hawke: 'I would have found a way to be an artist, even if I had been adopted' — the Guardian

In an interview with Coup De Main Magazine, Maya says:

I like that it’s mysterious. In that pre-chorus, “I was left like coals in leaves,” that seems kind of negative like you were thrown out with the trash kind of. But “I sparked up,” seems kind of positive, but it’s also catching on fire, and fire is dangerous and hot.

“Holding the party line” suggests conforming to expected behaviours or ideas, even when one feels embarrassed or uncomfortable doing so. The subsequent line, about running from safety, implies a desire to break free from these societal pressures.

This could be Maya’s way of saying she and Lucy are still so young – they barely know how to read. This is a denial of the truth, that they’re adults in college.

“Well, she could be a model” is a line in response to the “genius line” implies while Lucy is pretty, she definitely is not a genius.

Maya doesn’t think she’s anything special. She could think people should look up to people like her brother, who goes to an ivy league school.

Because of her parents being already previously famous, she skipped many steps and things in her life.

This seems to be a spin on the phrase, “biting off more than you can chew,” which means taking on more than you can handle.

In this phrasing, it could mean that the singer has gone farther than she meant to, and now she can’t back out.

Maya Hawke’s younger brother, Levon attends Brown University, an Ivy League school. Maya often visits him, and has been seen at several Brown parties.

Maya also gained fame staring in Netflix’s ‘Stranger Things,’ a popular television show which presumably pays her a large salary.

In an interview, Hawke talks about her conversations with a group of college students. She spoke about one girl in particular who said her dream was to write the next great American novel. She describes how this comment caused the realization that she was getting older. She views having big dreams as a thing for kids, which is interesting because she is an actor and a singer, but when later in the song she sings ‘But I was born with my foot in the door’, it shows a sort of unsureness or insecurity about her path in life and wondering about her career and if she’s where she wants to be, especially when she says ‘Didn’t think I’d get in, so I didn’t apply.’

“Get your mind out of the gutter” is a popular expression as a response to somebody with a “dirty mind” expressing their initial thoughts. This could be seen as Maya saying she was “born dirty-minded.”

Some people could take this as her saying she matured quickly for her age.

After admitting the benefits of her parents being famous actors in the previous line, this could be Hawke talking about what that was like growing up. Her whole life has been spent in front of a camera, whether paparazzi or movie. She hasn’t had a chance to have secrets because she’s been in the public eye for so long; She can’t spill her guts, they’ve been on the floor since she was born.