I made a mistake, I fell on my face

This whole damn year has just gone to waste

I just took a taste, thought It'd be okay

Suddenly I am trapped back in that place

Waking up sick

Waking up pissed

How the fuck did I get back on that shit?

I said I was done, I told the world

How will I tell this to my little girl?

I told her that daddy ain't leaving

He beat all of his demons

He buried them deep but I guess they're still breathing

They're killing me slowly, they keep so lonely

They make me think everything I writе is phony

So I run to drugs, looking for love

Hoping that I can go off with the buzz

But I get nonе, just have to get numb

I'm chasing the light that is over and done

Sometimes I forget I'm as tough as they come

I stared on the barrel of a loaded gun

And I came back to life after they pulled the plug

Yeah they wrote me off but my story ain't done

I've been at the bottom as deep as it gets

Like selling my shoes for a couple hits

Now I take a shot and I do not miss

And I ain't talking about needles and rigs

This life is a battle no matter your color

Addiction don't care if you're one or the other

A mother, a father, a sister, a brother

If life is a bitch I think death is a lover

Why are we born with this fucking disease?

Like we don't deserve to be happy and free

If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see

Why are so many relating to me?

If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see

Why are they feeling the same thing as me?

We all want a change, we kill to be free

But how can you kill something that doesn't breathe?

Yeah, how do you kill something that doesn't breathe?

How can you fight something that you can't see?

Addiction, depression, and anxiety

There's a gun in my head and it's loaded by me

I'm so tired of fighting, all I want is peace

I deserve to be happy, one day I'll be free

I'll never give up on something I believe

I'll never give up on something I believe

Even if they do not believe in me

I don't need validation or anyone's praises

I'm not asking anyone, I'm just gonna take it

I used to sell acid and ketamine, cocaine, methamphetamines

I was consumed by negative energy

But I moved on to having some better dreams

I see a long road that's ahead of me

The journey is part of your destiny

It is you who is your biggest enemy

Get out of your way and just let it be

Misery loves company

But when I'm alone I am miserable

You can put me in a room full of people

But still I feel so invisible

But when I write about how I fight

Suddenly I feel so invincible

Find your passion, go out and grab it

Don't ever let anyone tell you "no"

I've been to prison, I've overdosed

People used to say I never had a hope

Now I write these songs as they sing along

And they're proud of me

Funny how that goes

But I still deal with depression

Every single day is a battle with anxiety

If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see

Why are so many relating to me?

If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see

Why are they feeling the same thing as me?

We all wanna change, we kill to be free

But how can you kill soemthing that doesn't breathe

Yeah, how do you kill something that doesn't breathe?

How can you fight something that tou can't see?

Addiction, depression, and anxiety

There's a gun to my head and it's loaded by me

I'm so tired of fighting, all I want is peace

I deserve to be happy, one day I'll be free

I'll never give up on something I believe

How do you fight something that you can't see?

Addiction, depression, and anxiety

There's a gun to my head and it's loaded by me

I'm so tired of fighting, all I want is peace

I deserve to be happy, one day I'll be free

I'll never give up on something I believe

We deserve to be happy, one day we'll be free

Never give up on something you believe