Broken

By Matt Caplan

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It's not that I am hiding on the roof or underneath your table

It's not that I am counting down from ten or playing hide and seek

It's not that I am thinking of the past and consequently feeling older

It's not like I'll inherit all the Earth if I destroy the meek

It's not that I am special

It's not that I'm indifferent

It's not that I'm cowardly or vain

It's not that I am angry

It's not that I'm violent

I don't objectify my pain

Oh, but I could break you if I wanted to

Be cruel to you and I could show the world your song

Oh, I could break you if I wanted to

Be cruel to you, 'cause I was broken all along

It's not that I am folding up this chair and folding up my insight

It's not that I respect you any less for giving someone more

Oh, it's not that I regret the things I've done or anything I've planned to

It's not like changing after we descend will justify before

It's not that I am stupid

It's not that I'm scheming

It's not that I'm searching for a sign

It's not that I am righteous

It's not that I'm unfeeling

I don't expect you to be mine

Oh, but I could break you if I wanted to

Be cruel to you and I could show the world your song

Oh, I could break you if I wanted to

Be cruel to you, 'cause I was broken all along

And the things you tell me don't mean a thing if you're not scared

And turning your back on me won't leave me weak or unprepared

Oh, but I could break you if I wanted to

Be cruel to you and I could show the world your song

Oh, I could break you if I wanted to

Be cruel to you, 'cause I was broken all along

It's not like every devastating end brings a new beginning