Pain, agony I don't wanna feel it

Drain everything like I fucking own it

Stains left on everything

That I gave to you

Why does it hurt so much

Every day feels like I'm out of touch

Feel the waves as they hit me late at night

I'm so lost that I cannot feel alright

Not one single night

Where I feel so glad that I'm happy but

I'm so lost that I cannot feel alright

Not one single night

Where I feel so glad that I'm happy but

Anxiety is pulling on me

'cause all that's real is reality

'Cause I'm so lost in time don't,know what I should find

'cause when i try to love I'm centuries behind

They only wanna fuck me once or twice a month

They don't really wanna be with me or anyone

I take that babe but then I'm gonna have to run

'Cause the shawty is a demon loving

Real I think that I'm done

I just want some love for my life

Cannot get enough but I won't ride

That's what I tell my friends every damn night

Every single time it's damn lie

Why the fuck am I still trying

Living every single day but I'm dying

Fall asleep while I'm crying

Cannot tell the truth so I'm lying

I'm so lost that I cannot feel alright

Not one single night

Where I feel so glad that I'm happy but

I'm so lost that I cannot feel alright

Not one single night

Where I feel so glad that I'm happy but