Look

RIP my ego I should've let go three years ago

Secrets held down by my own

Events looking like who needs to know

Keep fuckin up PTSD what's next me as it turns out

Operating from hurt isn't so sexy

Red face through the dirt spills out my soul until my neck bleeds

If all I got is myself who on earth gon come and check me

Aiming for my future while running from my broken self

Hope he don't get me

My heart is so lost free me goddamn free me

What is this who am I this dirt forming of my mistakes

We past me deep blacked out room my breath's shallow

She screams on the bathroom floor

Father please cleanse the sin that comes and form into a hobby

I am nobody

A lonely figure crawling in search of what is godly

I knew they weren't in my favor so I went and left that party

I grew alone and made change to try to serve the best of my body

My heart present my mind got deep scars

A feeling only those that are close enough to press up on me

My job was to grow up past the boy I was

When they first put that stress on me

A thin line to walk from pain to growth I'm bound to jump

Cliffs on either side scrape you down to bone

Your true form′s at home and only found in love

Thoughts fed into me that I'm not enough

Toss them to the side and then I ground them up

Take it all on if I have to

Speak in truth for love to maintain its value

Scared people make scared people I show up and I dare people

Watch what surrounds you bad isn't always overt

The covet is covered I'm learning to be evil

Nothing changed the secret is go work

Prioritize expression when I cook so I put the stove first

Injecting art into my life like it's a bare needle

Blown up in my face I've been to ground zero

On sight this building not for those who don't serve

Seek understanding and growth

I live by what I've written or does it mirror my life

These words are my proverbs