MDMA - Intellectual

I feel like I'm trapped in a shell

Wanna be on the beach, instead I'm swimming in hell, help

Thoughts be screaming louder than a decibel

Over 85+, not FS, SPL

I don't know what happened to me in the past few years

Cried so much I don't even see my tears

They all say it does, I don't think the smoke clears

Or maybe it does, cause the fire in me disappeared

We didn't sign up for this life

If I had a choice, I would've said no morе than twice

My stress levеls have been doubling every night

How long till something comes to me that ain't a fucking fight

I need to stick my dick in the game like a rapist

Like what Eminem did when he was Almost Famous

But I need to recover myself and be shameless

Cause I tell you, when I have a brain I'll be dangerous

But I need to ask God a question

What will I become? What is my obsession?

Will I have the women, money and progression

Or will I be on the streets, out and investing

I feel like my body doesn't belong to me

Cause this angers taking over like debris

Like the earthquake in Türkiye from 2023

Cause I'm trapped with this mess, no one's setting me free

I'm running everyday with little to no energy

And everyday I'm living life in motherfucking jeopardy

The devil used to be my enemy, now he's my friend and he

Knows all the remedy to my lost self-esteem and now my melody

Replays in my ears every time I go to sleep

Maybe I need to go on some Xan's or some ecstasy

"What the fuck does that mean?"

Oh, ecstasy?

Methylenedioxymethamphetamine (haha)