Forever Missing You

By Marnz Malone

On Tina’s Boy

Released on February 9, 2024

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[Intro]

You don't know how much I miss your love

Much I miss your touch

You don't know how much I miss your love

I miss your love


[Verse 1: Montz]

Mum, I'm here to say I'm sorry, that's for everything I've done

And police were sitting round the back and kicking off the front

I'm sitting down in handcuffs, that's when you ask what I've done

I'm looking all confused but you know I'm just acting dumb

And I'ma keep it real, your youngest daughter ain't coping

Her boyfriend's acting up but he don't know that bro will smoke him

Your eldest daughter's fine, she's living calm, she's living life

Nothing ain't changed, your little boy's just still inside

He's still inside and just the other day, I put some flowers by your side

I hope dad's cool and nan's doing fine

I think my kids can see you, they keep pointing to the sky

I just asked Allah why people have to die

I waited five minutes, didn't get no reply

Can't cry, I just block the pain, try to get high

Bit of reggae on a Sunday, I know you're tryna vibe

Anyway dad I'm missing you and I'm forever missing you

I'll give what I got to kick back and blow a spliff with you

Had to feature with Double M, I know what he's been through

Gangsters relate so this is the truth

Locked up, I dunno when I'll next visit you

And last week I went and lost the password to my Snap

So I lost all our memories, I don't think I'll get 'em back

Shit's fucked, I just need to leave the road and stick to rap

Uncle Owen's on the same shit

Me and Louise gave him some P's and he spent it on the same shit

But addiction is real and you won't change it

But I'm good, right now I'm just on basic

Sat with some Free Prints, just staring at your faces

And it's fucked cah my daughter turned five

And she don't know what death is, she don't know you're not alive

So protect them, I see you looking down from where you lie


[Break]

You don't know how much I miss your love

Much I miss your touch

You don't know how much I miss your love

I miss your love


[Verse 2: Marnz Malone]

If you were still here, I always wonder what you'd think

I wonder if we'd reason over drinks

I thought that I would meet you on the day that I got chinged

I was knocking on the door but they wouldn't let me in

Shit, I always wonder what you'd do

Did you spend your time at home or was you always on the move?

I inherit that from you

I'm a rap star now, I ain't just any other yute

And I'm my own boss so nobody can tell me what to do

I keep iron with me, Don King

They keep telling me we look alike

They don't know that I've only seen one pic

And I was wondering if I could just ask one thing

Without you here, how can I have everything I'm wanting?

I miss you, numb the pain with all this drug misuse

God takes all the best ones, that's why He picked you

Uncle Kingsley told me that you used to keep your pistol

Dunno if they love me or just see me as the rich yute

I hope you're proud dad, it's 2AM and I'm up smoking loud

Thinking how you went halves on the golden child

I'm stuck in quicksand so I ain't been home a while

Swear I get this charm from you, I could make a cobra smile

And you know that I don't mean to cry

I gotta stay offline, they get me mad and provoke me to slide

I'm Tina's boy, as long as I'm here dad, I swear that she's alright

Granny said "Be vigilant", she's losing sight in both her eyes

Dad I waited years for this, it didn't happen overnight


[Break]

You don't know how much I miss your love

Much I miss your touch

You don't know how much I miss your love

I miss your love


[Verse 3: Bandokay]

So I turned into the older guy

I lost my little sister, dropped a tear and just rolled my eyes

For Six's funeral, I let his mum to let me know the price

I'm pouring out Henny with a load of ice

Father Mark, I lost you in the worst way

I got a son now, the other day it was his birthday

Now why the babylon even kill you in the first place?

My head starts to shake like an earthquake

Searching for you is like searching for a mermaid

If you were still here yo, if you were still here dad

Would you give me guns, tell me "Slide" and tell me "Air that"?

You'd probably tell me "Nah", you would do it but I hear that

You loved the leather gloves, you're probably pissed I touched it bareback

I know you're probably mad that me and uncs always fumble

But on my son's life, I'll kill for my uncle

Your friend just done life and they just threw bundles

My mama's still praying for me when I'm in the jungle

Gorilla in the zoo though

You'd probably be my manager, I'd have you in the studio

And we got memories that only I know and you know

Your dad passed after you, you're kicking it with Bruno

All them riots in the UK, I wondered what would you say?

When I had the blicky in the bolt, not Usain

My niggas in jail sticking pictures with their toothpaste

It can go one way or two ways or three ways

They got me in my mean ways

And I don't give a fuck about what he says or she says

I see my nigga run and pass the stick, must have thought this was relay

I'm a savage at heart but still humble like PK

At the cemetery, all I do is pour Hennessy

Still think about memories while listening to Memories

And I can't bring you back but them thoughts, they will never leave

And it is what it is but what it was, it will never be


[Outro]

You don't know how much I miss your love

Much I miss your touch

You don't know how much I miss your love

I miss your love