[Verse I - Manic TL]
Tell me what it is, then tell me what you want it to be
I had a vision of the sea, but it was only a dream
My real scene's made of different shades of black
But when I dilate my eyes, I find that light’s another trap
Okay just relax- I need to relax
Spent all my time on people, like "Now I need me that back"
I speak with conviction, she said "Try speaking the facts"
I asked how I'd know 'em, she said "Light peaks through the cracks"
And it’s just my perspective holding me back
Stop- I overthink and plan every night away
Windows covered up, ain't no difference here if it's night or day
"Light the way", oh, I would do it, if only I knew it
Had the chance to hold it all, but I blew it because I'm stupid
[Hook I - Manic TL & Fay Allure]
So, now I'm looking for shorty in every bitch I do the dance with
Night until morning, I just can't do nothing to manage
Roll up the sour, break down the powder for the damage
Devour the hours until I slowly start to vanish
I know
"It's useless to cry over rainy weather"
Oh, I know
"You should be getting your life together"
Bitch, I know
"It's better the muddier ties are severed and rewritten overtime because nothing can hold forever"
[Verse II - Manic TL]
I’ve dug people graves that I only ended up laying in
And I’ve opened gates for people who just left me behind
It's been a lot of crazy years of trying to figure my way again
Figure how to decompress, and how to open my mind
Look at the time, it’s been a drawn-out hell of a ride
My mood swings fall and rise with the tide, I'm wider eyed than ever
Never surprised when it's to heavy to measure
Never surprised when there's too many to lever
Keep it together, I guess
Simple to say, but worth saying, nevertheless
We get tired shifting around all this weight we got on our chests
Tired of hanging on all the faces who came and left, we forgot how to be happy the moment we got upset
[Hook II - Manic TL]
So, now it’s all more distorted with every bitch I do the dance with
Spinning and falling, I just can't do nothing to manage
Falling in too deep, I just can't do shit for the damage
I need some fucking sleep, I feel like I'm starting to vanish
(I know)