They think I got it figured out

But i’m nowhere to be found

I ain't figure out shit

Gimme shit’a hold down

Worked overtime, prolly' should've slowed down

'Cause I threw away a lot to get this shit rolled out

Been a long year, and I was pretty smoked out

So its not so clear just how to grow now

Made a little money, burned a whole lot of bridges

With some people that I love that i don't know now

I ain't here i'm just disconnected

Flip through my texts like I missed a message

Would've have died for something that i'm sad i'm left with

Can't ride for no one guess i'm too restless

I don't know who i’m supposed to turn to when its only me, and i’m not enough

I fell down, fell out of love, and fell into pieces, come drown with us

I got so many me's theres a town of us

But nobody knows shit, we’re just loud and drunk

And I was shootin' from the hip, its astounding stuff

The way you and me clicked, like I found the one

I don't run I just face the facts and my fears

And ain't no one give you credit for that

So I tear for whats real

'Cause these ain't my cards to deal

Now my futures never been less clear

I guess we’ll just keep these wheels turnin'

I been all ears and that left me hurtin'

Sometimes I feel like pullin' down the curtain

I think i'm healin' but I still ain't learnin'

I ain't sure when shit will feel like home

And when I won't lose sleep just to feel alone

Had a lot of dreams 'bout the day we could finally be

I beam with the most false of hope

You say to slow my role, then tell me "don't let go"

Yesterday you needed me, now you dont know

You're inside my head and under my skin

We just speed in circles, and it really shows

I said that I won't fold but then it got so cold

Each passing night took an expensive toll

I heard it all the time, and lo and behold

In real life love hurts, etch that in gold

It sounds so old, but some things don't change

Stuck in my ways kinda hard to rearrange

Tried turn another page, maybe hit a new chapter

Tryin' to get through it, don't know where i’ll be after

I feel like a disaster but now nothin' baffles me

I'm between a hard place an catastrophe

I’m still here, lookin' for someone to pass the key

It feels like school, everybody laughed at me

Now there has to be more to it than I see here

Its too often I don't even wanna be here

And too often you don't wanna see me here

We fear livin' so i guess we’ll never leave here

Keep clear or you’ll spiral with me

Get smiles from the same ones out to get me

10 miles behind with 10 thousand more

A young me thought I already broke down the door

Still hungry, they don't know what i’m fasting for

I wanna move but I miss way back before

When we’d sit build life while we passed the torch

Or conch, or drink, or joint, sittin' on your porch

And when the worlds pain didn't feel like half the chore

Or when our little games didn't leave us cracked and torn

And when everything didn't start a back and fourth

I guess life is exactly what i asked it for