It was nearin' 4 in the mornin’

The devil called me, I said "i'm sorry ma'am, you must forgive me, my schedule busy, really, i’m overwhelmed"

She followed by with askin' what I been doin'

I said "honestly too much for me to tell

I feel like i'm in a cell, or hell, workin' 24 hours shifts"

She laughed and said it sound like I got reason to live

I said "it's funny, I carry more of a purpose than most

And I understand we're all we got so I do try to have hope

But some shit along the road, ain't that easy to shake

And my world is full of snakes"

She said "thats true for everyones lane"

I said "I know"

She said "you don’t"

I said "I mean, i’d never claim to know

What nightmares some could be walkin' through

But try throwin’ on my shoes

Yo, I been to hell and back too

With what i'm dealt you'd wonder why I don't live in bad mood

And probably wonder why I front like I ain’t confused

Or like I had some shit to prove when I know there ain't no use"

She asked me what i'm gettin' at

I said "yo, I never knew

My psyche skewed and it don't always help me talkin' to you

I went from rappin' on the stoop to rappin' loud for empty rooms

Its what i gotta do but its like everyays on a loop

I try to stay true

But i been fallin down im a depressed mess

So even at my best my mind is drowning me in death threats

I- Just think what I need in my life's unfound

I'm proud of what I done but I get really low when i'm down

Im more fortunate than most in that I can escape in sound

But all I have is passing time to pull me out of the ground"

She said she hears me loud but really hell is worse than it seems

And i'm lucky I got the means for me to follow my dreams

She said my visions blurry dealin' with the weight of the scene

We growin' by the week and I do got a really great team

"And since the rhymes and 88-keys, you say you been a mess

You focused on your stress instead of seein' that you're cryin' less

And I ain't tryin' to test, I know life has been really mad for you

But more so for your mother so you been known what you had to do"

I said "don't give me attitude" then said she was right

She said she always had a way a helpin' people see the light

"Like, really people don't fight right

Just fume with aggression

And give into human obsession

To keep too many weapons

Its our nature to be defensive

But more so to be defenseless

And then we bottle anger and lash out and we mis direct it

Ain't no misconception we live amongst missed connections

Second guessin' is such a sin when you're distrusting your senses"

And I said its late for her to be so relentless

Then she joked it was "never too late to wake up", but I know she meant it

After we finished talkin' I overthought it, like always

And decided I could smile when faced with a locked doorway

And I could be more grateful and wait while the pots warmin'

Instead of dreadin' attention i'll pray they don't stop swarming

I'll try to stop fallin' like the ways I done in the past

And try to pass more than pushin' the most negative path

I'm obsessin' over the math, I know I ain't got it all

But I know I came far from nowhere, so none of my 'bout to fall

A lot of truth in that but right now i'm just mouthin' off

So late that it's early and I been up since the crack of dawn

Maybe i'll kick it back with my demons and laugh along

I'm content, but tomorrow i'll be mad again at it all, i'm gone