Dazed I awake

Out of the grey

You see this sleep was never ever good for me

A stroking voice

This welcome lies

I know this reality as my enemy

Its malice thrives

On searching minds

Foolishly trying to discern true destiny

Still have to grant

Feelings command

That I’m in love with this, cruellest of energies

Life to often offers itself as a willing whore on all fours

Drawing you beyond your will into mind robbing foul intercourse

Although I know that the sweetest fruit can be enjoyed

After tearing open one’s mouth to its prickly mind blowing hide

I have to slide

To reconcile

My make belief order with this entropy

To write ‘em down

Visions of mine

And put my hope in shimmering ambiguity

Prism unnamed

Choas prevails

Will have its way with my part in its transcendency

Still have to play

Deranged, the same…

You see, happiness was never meant for me

Life too large, but for all I care reasons enough when finding some love somewhere