[Verse}

It seem like we hit a bump that turned to collision

I know it felt like I was Keller the way I didn't listen

I was so afraid to lose her but ain't notice the distance

Between the two hearts of the ark, I miss all the kisses

She said the love ain't felt the same since the truce of commitment

The moment she walked out my room, I fell to a quickness

An empty soul with regret and broken stompеd out pieces

She cut thе ties off with me but that still don't make it even

And I still feel like a monster from the previous episode

Didn't even plan any dates or watch her kind of shows

I never knew what was coming til it was under my nose

Or did I know all along from the emotions that unfold

I don't feel motivated to move on with another person

She was everything to me, even my other person

On the outside, it seemed we had the love that surfaced

She was always working, and I was never working

I thought that I was bleeding, she was bleeding more

All the pain and trauma caused, it was scream galore

This that real life shit, I never had things like this

Don't want another black girl, or another white chick

All along, she was hurting but she was too quiet

I was living in loudness, she was gon suffer in silence

And I was kept around til she rolled all the dices

And I respected her decision but the emotions kept on fighting

I was always told "Be the nigga that deserve me."

Instead, I was the nigga full of uncertainty

A nigga with no currency, a nigga with no urgency

A nigga who was confronted by the girl who put the urge in me

She taught me how to love myself, that's something special

But I was on the last life , beating the past levels

I just hope that I'm forgiven and let out of this prison

With the kindness of her heart and the energy given

I can't force her to give another chance at living

Can't imagine her being anyone else's but Chris's

And I never wanted to be the kid to fail the course of love

And you wore them flaws like a human and it fit like a glove

And I know we not perfect but I still don't have an excuse

And I hate that my action simplified the love that reduced

Tears of blood and hearts of flames is what I produced

Babygirl you soldier and to you know , I will salute

You planted the apple tree and I fucked up the roots

You built this shit from the ground and I tore up the whole roof

You told me shit was getting old and I stayed as a youth

I apologize it wasn't once and it wasn't a fluke

I know you wanted this to work and i wanted it too

I still want it to work , I just wanna love you

[Outro]

April 14th

The day .. everything changed