Before I looked to you as something I adored

An inch out of my reach beyond my form

You were an object to me, you held my gaze

The person I was once has me amazed

So in my head I whispered words, empty now

Not yours, not ever, no way, no how

I do believe yes, looking back

That you have always, always, known

Yes, I wanted of you

Yes, I longed to touch you

Yes, I slept drained of you

Yes, I never had you

Yes, I've grown beyond you

Yes, I've gone and lived without you

Yes, I've thought about you

Yes, I've learned to hate you

Now, I realize you

Now, I stand above you

Now, I can despise you

And all others like you

Once, I would have loved you

Done anything for you

Held, touched, cared, forever fucked you

Now the thought makes me abhor you

You've done nothing for me

Tears were never shed for me

Still I know you knew it silently took more of me

You'll never touch me

You'll never taste me

No matter how you want me

You mean nothing to me

I see red and taste your smile

Bile-like spitting choked defiled

Memories now so maddening, innocent, embarrassing

Now you're nothing and I know

As I look to you below

Is my laughter not enough to show you how extremely you're fucked up