(Monologue)
I swear, it’s funny because some people act like they know the kid
It’s like they know- they know the emotions I’m dealin’ with, the emotions
I'm tryna balance and juggle…were you by my side when I was depressed?
Were you by my side when I was suicidal?
No, nobody knows, this is how its gonna go yeah check it yeah
(Verse 1)
Back when I was twelve or thirteen
I was driven to exceed
Till some punks bulliеd me
Turning me to a sheep
I was at my lows
Asking God for an early dеcease
Every day got worse
With these punks dissing me
Making me feel like I’m good for nothing
I was alone constantly crying
My family didn’t understand
Cuz' the system lied to them
As if they were fools
Imagine wanting to die young
Cuz' you were shamed to be black in school
I swear I'm not making this up
Not even I understood what was up
My mother couldn’t praying to God
Whilst my teachers lied to my father
About my grades falling off
"Little Jaden" all sad and cross
Let me tell you this story about how I discovered God…
(Hook)
I swear you niggas act like you know me
But most of ya’ll that know me are phoneys
One minute they hate me
Next minute were homies none of ya know me
None of ya know me (none of you know me)
None of ya know me (yeah! Fuck the world)
None of ya know me, none of ya know me
(Verse 2)
I used to be insecure about my looks
Misunderstood the books
Treated like a crook
I was enslaved to follow their commands
Hated myself wanted to be like the rest
Ignorance was the normal in my head
I hope one day I get to feel life
Awaiting and contemplating where we go after death
At 15 I lost all my friends
No circle, no support, me against the world
Found a way to escort myself from the outside
Peer pressured twice
I was terrified, memories made me petrified
Late nights battling my mind
Pac telling me “Never surrender whilst you’re alive”
Everyday was a confidence boost
Not for my ego but for my heart
I’m convinced I’ve encountered satan in the dark
Different images but I still spark
Couldn’t care less about people’s remarks
After I’m gone, I’ll leave the world scarred
Like tingle, I’m ready to blow up
(Hook)
I swear you niggas act like you know me
But most of ya’ll that know me are phoneys
One minute they hate me
Next minute were homies none of ya know me
None of ya know me (none of you know me)
None of ya know me (yeah! Fuck the world)
None of ya know me, none of ya know me
(Verse 3)
From times I felt out of place
So I walk away to fix my shape from the heartbreaks
Finding a way to locate peace
Instead of revenge in the streets
Vendettas more soothing than the hot weather’s
I’ll never understand
How someone’s pain is another man’s pleasure
I used to love them until I realised to do better
What’s worse feeling like you’re cursed
I’m writing my deepest reflection from this verse
Hours on end just to make amends
Falling for these traps by these fake friends
Learning my lessons to overcome depression
Finding happiness from oppression is a bittersweet blessing
I live cautiously but do I feel protected?
The devil’s reckless, negative energy testing me
Somebody tell me why I feel trapped?
All of this money has me uncomfortable
Is somebody to stab my back?
They left me out when I was right
Too many put me down in this life
I look up to the sky learning the depths of life
No limitations nor expectations
I can’t be disappointed by these wafflers and bottle jobs
Promising their word for the moment
But lose out to their own opponents
Brains are sowed majority hopeless
Since they love being drained
I’m connived everybody’s soul has been sucked from this game
And its a shame they do anything to take a young hustler’s soul away
The state we live in is unforgiven
But the only way to change is to rectify to our children
(Hook) x2
I swear you niggas act like you know me
But most of ya’ll that know me are phoneys
One minute they hate me
Next minute were homies none of ya know me
None of ya know me (none of you know me)
None of ya know me (yeah! Fuck the world)
None of ya know me, none of ya know me