[Chorus]

It hurts so much that I lost you

Over and over again

I am singing and grieving

Can someone comprehend?

It’s a different kind of let go

To say bye to a friend

But we all know eventually

That everything comes to an end

[Verse 1]

Telling a story just feels so wrong

Which leaves me terrified as I’m writing this song

And I know exactly that this ain’t a song

It’s a letter, but damn… what took me so long?

Me moving on? Shit that would be good

That would be perfect ‘cause I’m in a mood when there’s nowhere to shoot

So I’m blaming you

For everything you said that made me so blue

Even if I know it was all just me

Me who got trust issues periodically

The timing was terrible, during a period we had to meet, now see?

“Who is this person” what they’re asking now

Didn’t know you two were friends”

Really, how?

So this was a fact that nobody got

Still I don’t care, it was about us

So

Why am I writing this rap

Well

I’m quite glad that you asked, it’s a message to someone who plays in my head, after two years of torturing me IRL

You were important to me way back then

Now you just turn me down when I write

Thanks

Yeah I was stupid, of course I know that, but the more you ignore me, the harder it gets

[Chorus]

It hurts so much that I lost you

Over and over again

I am singing and grieving

Can someone comprehend?

It’s a different kind of let go

To say bye to a friend

But we all know eventually

That everything comes to an end

[Verse 2]

So I am confused, ‘cause I ain’t got a clue

Why I can’t puzzle my story ‘bout you

I’m tryin’ and tryin’ and can’t find the truth

So I could tell my friends what was up with you

Yeah, I’m scared of you as I’m pushin’ this rap

Everywhere I turn my face I see gaps

I told my girl this, and couldn’t express

Now you made this more difficult, thank you for that

I said I could move on from things in the past

Take a blank page, fill it with a friend

Is that you? No, I got turned down, thanks

I was harassing you that’s what you said

What the fuck?

Really what’s up?

How could you say that to someone you loved

Someone who didn’t see you in a year and just tried to write down what was in their heart

And here comes the hard part, prepare for it, because this is so heavy, it’s holding me down

It ain’t a love story you were somebody who I could talk with for hours a night

Yeah it was fun, I had someone to hug when I walked down the hall, but it’s all over now

And everything comes to an end

I shouldn’t care about you

I’m proud

I’m proud of who I am in ‘21

I’m proud o’ this dude, who I really love

I’m better than I was, and proud that I could start turning away from that very someone

Still it sucks that I can’t move on from the past

It sucks that your voice is still in my head

And fuck, that voice is still saying that maybe I’m only a dude from school and not your friend

If you’re hearing this song you might want me to stop

Then call me and tell me yourself it’s enough

That If it was your fault you’re sorry you hurt me, but I hurt you too and not even once

I lost my trust, that must have been bad

And threw you away, so you never looked back (never)

Now our connection’s lost, and I feel the bad, but I felt the urge to reveal…

How I felt