(Verse)

Dear family, I am sorry for this letter

Sorry for the pain I'm leaving behind, I hope it gets better

I have done something stupid and not out of pride or pleasure

But cause I felt too much pressure

To please everybody except myself so against myself

I had a vendetta

They say you reap what you sow and now my body is cold

Damn man I might need a sweater

Before I explode with guilt and anger, I need to mix all of my emotions and try and get it together

Just like a carburettor

Cause I can't get no rest

I've been feeling so stressed

I've been feeling depressed

All of these thoughts in my head

Cannot sleep when I'm in bed

Maybe I'll sleep when I'm dead

Cause how can a home not feel like home, sorry but somebody has to confess

Remember when I was kicked out of the house and had to sleep on the floor

You never forgave me but you forgave me somebody else who brings trouble to the door

This how I feel to the core

But this is not new to me I can ensure

That I have already been here before

My drip is the blood from the scars that i've worn

Drinking away every drink that I pour is the way I endure all the pain

That is something that can't be restored

Don't even know what goes on in my head, maybe the demons can give you a tour

Late nights that i've stayed up

Scenarios i've made up

Thinking bout the robbery and breakups

This a foundation you can't make up

To face my fears, I look in the mirror

As we go through chapters, the book's getting thinner

Trapped in a tunnel, i've not seen a glimmer of hope

My body gets cold and I shiver

Been known firing shots but if I had one more shot to fire, would I pull the trigger

I know you don't want to hear this but that's how I'm feeling

I know the truth can be bitter

The amount of trapped inside is a fair amount

I guess there are some things you don't care about

I was out the door ready to die

Where you never even cared bout my whereabouts

Risked health to show potential in me

The more I please them, the less I am me

The more that I write, the less that I speak

The less that is said, That less that I breathe

Tried to please them instead I lost my mind

Looking at the clock and i've got no time

When I feel low, you all stay high

Now I'm here asking myself why

Why?

Would I leave this behind

But maybe for all the demons to die

I needed to die

Cause death is the only thing guaranteed in this life

Do what I (Mc)can 'fore I'm missing like Madeleine

Losing the plot from the shit i've been battling

Depression and family issues along with the album, don't know how I balance it

Got my whole life in the palm of my hands, so tell me why the fuck am I gambling

Hanging on by a thread man I'm dangling

Don't know what's happening

Everything's blackening

It's all unravelling

Maybe I'm rambling

Maybe I'm talented

Maybe I'm not but it's saddening

That I'm abandoning my life away, man I'm panicking

Scrambling at the rope on my neck, man I am strangling

Losing all hope

Maybe today is the day that I broke

All I can do is say sorry

Cause that is the end of my suicide note...

(Outro)