(Verse 1)

Been hiding behind a smile that don't stay

Saying that i’m okay in a practiced away

Cause I talk brave, but i'm hollow at the core

Every breath that I take, feel heavier than before

I pray for quiet, but get static instead

Heartbeat pounding, can't lay in my bed

It’s like I am running from the me that knows

Every step I take is closer to where fear grows

One voice saying run, one voice sayibg stay

One voice saying, you will never make it anyway

My chest is tight, my palms arе cold

Trust unravelling, faith on hold

People see thе smile, but don't see the storm

How I drown in calm, trying to look norm

I keep verses as a lifeline rope

But the ink bleed fear instead of hope

Implode

(Hook)

I don't wanna self implode, but the fuse is getting close

I been screaming through my songs, hoping someone hears the smoke

I don't wanna self implode, but i'm crumbling slow

Holding onto whispers that say, don't let go

(Verse 2)

If i'm honest, i'm scared of what’s next

Like i’m one thought away from a disconnect

Tell me what's real, I really can’t tell

Is this even earth, or is it my own hell

My heartbeat glitching, thoughts on fire

I cannot tell truth from a liar

All these voices, they wear my tone

They keep saying, you're never alone

Now i'm scared to sleep, cause my dreams talk back

Every night replaying what I lack

I'm scared of quiet, i’m scared of loud

I'm scared of crowds, but I crave the crowd

But if these walls could echo my pain

You'd hear thunder calling my name

Every lyric I write, feel like a will

A note saying to the world, i'm here still

(Bridge)

Please god I beg don't

Make me lose control

Nah, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't

(Hook)

I don't wanna self implode, but the fuse is getting close

I been screaming through my songs, hoping someone hears the smoke

I don't wanna self implode, but i'm crumbling slow

Holding onto whispers that say, don't let go

(Post-Hook)

I don't wanna self implode, but I feel it building slow

Every word a weight I hold, every silence cutting close

I don't wanna self implode, but the walls starting to fold

Tell me you see me fade, before I turn to smoke

I don't wanna self implode, but I feel it coming close

If I fall before i'm found, tell my words I tried to cope

I don't wanna self implode, I just need a hand to hold

Before I lose control, please don't let me go