[Verse 1]

I ain't ever been the person that was always decisive

Costed me life

I had to put a pause on advice

No one to call in the night

I learned to sprawl and to fight

Sticking they fingers in my cage and made me forcefully bite

I found the key to the box that I locked my heart deep inside of

I tried to revive it, but dammit now it's cold and it's rotten

I grew up with table manners, but I guess I forget 'em

Cause I've been gone and isolated in my dungеon just plotting

Now I'll be honest with you

I've been having somе visions

And which is real and which is not no I cannot tell the difference

The fallen angel knocking at my door to pay me a visit

And I can hear him whispering and he been offering riches

I told my doctor what I saw, but he just offered prescriptions

I'll add it to the list of things I can't resolve while I'm living

I guess I'm gifted, right

Well that depends on the viewer

Cause what you seeing is different looking behind your computer

[Chorus]

I'm not going back

I don't wanna crash no

This could never last

Take my burdens

I'm not going back

Please don't let me crash no

Leave it in the past

I'll keep searching

[Verse 2]

This ain't the way I thought it all would go down

People I thought I loved the most are now no longer around

You said that you would never leave, but you're no where to be found

I'm fine now when I make please don't ask for my crown

And I been searching like Nate and seeking out hope in my lane

I'm hating all that I create, but still expect to be great

And to the younger version of me there's a lot that's at stake

One day your parents gonna split and then you'll lose the estate

Listen there's a lotta pressure coming in that you'll face

And then the odds will stack against you and you'll question your faith

Carve out an X over the people who said raps a mistake

Just find the strength to show forgiveness after making a name

And if you don't, then at least you chose to give shot

Better to lose at what you love then cave to something you're not

And I would rather take a chance then to sit here and rot

But if I crash along way at least they'll know what I thought

[Chorus]

I'm not going back

I don't wanna crash no

This could never last

Take my burdens

I'm not going back

Please don't let me crash no

Leave it in the past

I'll keep searching