The good turns bad

The simple's the sad

I know more who you are

Then I know who the hell I am

I wanna see the real world

I don't wanna be some mean swirling

Emotionful dick that means more than nobody

You mean more than me girl

I just wanna stop the suffering

I'm looking for ways to escape

But the heart heals more than the mind

And the mind kills you more than the heart

Just wanna be like I was back from the start

But I'm dying inside

And the mind won't restart

It's like losing a flashlight

While scoping the dark

Of an infinite void

And I'm losing the coins

That can buy me the happiness

Falling apart

And I'm losing control of the places I'm happiness

Left me on read, feel like I'm the nastiest bitch

That can grasp the most masked of the packed

And I'm blasting through bars but can't blast through the dark

Just another get in an egg carton

My visions is blurry my dead scars

Get worse by the second

It's less hard to just let this stuff go

But I'm messed up

Stressed like a dog in a cage

Whimpering its life away the island in black

The surrounding are too

But the mindset I'm in is the only thing stopping me from getting closer to just

Me and you

Chronicles written

The articles within will never change unless we

Harden and thicken

My brain starts to rot

And my blood starts to clot

My veins will untangle if my hearts gets the gist of it

Sentences jumble together

I stumble to fathom what it would de

Without you ever

I wish I was me again

Wish you would see my true colors

See how much I love you and love you but

I don't really give the reason why the person I became has to be the biggest prick on the Earth

I don't want you harming yourself

I feel you [?] elf on the shelf

Surveying it making strength to restrain it

And I think about you often but the brain just [?] think about itself freaking exploding by a 3 inch metal bullet but I think I might just cry instead for 25 hours a day no motivation mind is dead

Just put me in a straightjacket

I'll lose my mind on my own

It's the cries that bled me out

It's the freaking scream & shouts

Reasons I decide to pout about myself

I look myself in the mirror and I scold it

And I punch the living shit out of it

And I suck it up

But it coming back next minute

I'm the only person that understand

"Manipulative piece of shit"

Is the words that repeat in my mind

I lost raw ability to love you

And I can't listen to half the songs I listened to before

Cause they remind me of you

And I might just refuse to rewrite this whole thing and might just refuse to not love you anymore

Cause you're the only person I trust anymore