[Intro]

Questions of this identity start to pester me

Parasitically more critical than that of a flea

I know better than to tuck my tail try to turncoat and leave

I know roots of bravery are sown in me much like a tree

Yet see. Where does this world end and madness begin

When do those separate things become one existence

Because they similarities show they the same

Mothers grievances and fatherless pain

Wondering if sacrifice is in vain

Bleeding out on streets spreading the strain

Of lusting and killing and robbing and stealing and racist and framing and rapist victim shaming shifting the blame

It just drive me insane

I can’t be the same oh Lord

[Verse 1]

I been living in a trance

Trynna figure out who the hell I am

Never walking up always in always in a stance

Feeling way too rigid I can’t even dance

I been living in a trance

Trynna be a man

Who gives a damn

I been praising God way less than man

Trynna figure out is this who am

And I think not

But this life ain’t been too bright can’t see no peacocks

But these crows keep circling up like it’s my season

But I won’t die without my purpose being completed

I got too much not to lose for

Family Matters so I can't have wins low

Opportune coming soon so believe that I'm jumping out of windows

Yeah I’m willing

Somebody pass the penicillin

Cause in this world can’t have no feelings

Starin at the ceiling

Thoughts drilling in my head

That imma beat the villain

Till the filling leaks

Trynna stay woke while society asleep

If I can beat these insecurities that lurk deep

Inside of me

And never speak

And you don’t see

Cause they so concealed

That I ain’t even know they be

[Chorus]

Man These thunderstorms pouring down

And I’m trying hard not to drown

Cause I gotta find the will to turn these mountains into mounds

While These thunderstorms pouring down

And I’m trying hard not to drown

Cause I gotta find the will to turn these mountains into mounds

Yeah, yeah

[Verse 2]

I'm in my head too much

Quit trynna be perfect cause they expect too much

Never be complete unless you connect

With your inner self and wants

Yearn to be best amongst

Those u keep around you keep on spreading love

Hate to be in distress because

No beacon streak enough to

Save us from us

Nah gotta stay self preservent

Don’t break yo back nearly bussing yo spleen

Giving into themes that you don’t believe

That’s your individuality

Fallacy is telling me there is no false sense in acting counterfeit

Yet I know the battle be against mallacy

And I’m trynna comprehend exactly who I’m bout to be

Seeking Self-identity pinning me against enemy

Pushing me to be finicky

Instead of realizing the inner me

Being self-present

Taking the gift of unwrapping my purpose

Head into directions

Of hurting threat that is lurking

Beneath the surface

Of my own flesh

Making decisions that I had known best

Getting rid of the stress within my own head

Beating any challenge Feeling like what's next

HUH!

[Chorus]

Man These thunderstorms pouring down

And I’m trying hard not to drown

Cause I gotta find the will to turn these mountains into mounds

While These thunderstorms pouring down

And I’m trying hard not to drown

Cause I gotta find the will to turn these mountains into mounds

Yeah, yeah

[Outro]

I got too much on my mind to try to unwind

To try to unwind

I got too much on my mind and ain't got no time

To try and go find

I got too much on my mind to try to unwind

To try to unwind

I got too much on my mind and ain't got no time

To try and go find myself, self, self, self, self...

I ain't got no time to try and go find myself, self, self, self...

[Refrain]

(Rain, rain go away)

(Come again another day)

(You will not drive me insane)

(I know Imma find a way)

To try and go find myself, self, self, self...

Cause these...!