[Part I]

[Verse 1]

This shit's been, advantageous for way too long

Turn pages, but the book, it’s just too long

Think I hate the way I look, but I don't know

Think I'm staring at a mirror and turning to stone

Think I’ve always known the truth, but I'm scared to act

Got a pair of eyes trained on me that never relax

Get anxiety in waves lately, and it's really fuckin' weird

It's kinda like it was a couple years ago

Fuck this

I don't wanna function anymore

Been sitting at the junction, but you're waiting at my door

I don't wait for interruptions anymore

I just take shit when I want it

So can anyone explain why her words got me pausing every sentence?

This shit’s relentless

I end up getting fucked up

Every second that I feel calm

Found my way to napalm

And I’m transfixed

I wanna feel alive

Wonder why it is I can't live

[Chorus]

I got my head on right

But I don’t see what's wrong

If we really fell in love

I wouldn't make this song

It wouldn't take so long

The words would find me on their own

I wouldn’t drive myself to madness

I wouldn't have to be alone

[Verse 2]

Sit down

Please

I'll calm down

Just don't leave yet

I need a chance to prove to myself

That this is something unique

So can we sit for an hour and speak?

I know that I come on really strong

Make a lot of bad decisions and a few of them are wrong

On a moral level

But morale is dropping from my thoughts

So let me just tell you what I saw when you met my eyes

On the Fourth of July last year

Yeah, the sky was ablaze

But I just stared at your face

And you just stared at mine

Felt like something happened that day

Cause you didn't say a word to me for three weeks after

All the laughter that we've shared about it since feels off

Our friendships wrong now

And I can't calm down

I might just walk out

I'm sorry that I asked you to stay

If only you'd come over yesterday

[Chorus]

I got my head on right

But I don't see what's wrong

If we really fell in love

I wouldn't make this song

It wouldn't take so long

The words would find me on their own

I wouldn't drive myself to madness

I wouldn't have to be alone

[Part II]

[Verse 3]

I been worried 'bout the wrong shit

Always tryna dodge it

I've been thinking I got power over something fully out of reach

When you've got a hold on me

The sky opens and I see new colors

But I'll see you different when I leave you like the others

Got it color coded

Feeling omnipotent

Now I fully get myself

You better get the fuck right out of my way

'Cause there ain't no way that I can dwell

On what can't be

Planning futures I'll never get to see

The scenes set

And now I'm breathing steady

Out of steam

I got some time to kill

But I won't sit for shit

Yeah, the machinery I got inside is trying to quit

I'll take a nap in the dirt

And let my mind drift

Timeless truths always find me when I'm lying on the Sideroof

This the song I wanna die to

Something only the people closest to me will ever hear

A resigned mindset is replacing the fear

I take an hour to wonder if I can make it a year

I'll never lie to you that much I can promise

I'm so sporadic that you're always on your toes

I'm always trying to improve

That's what everybody knows

But what no one understands is that none of that works

I'll never make you a promise

I know I'll break it

I never leave you astonished I'm so predictable

I'll never gain any knowledge cause I'm too confident that struggling works

Don't give a shit if anybody gets hurt, yo

[Chorus]

I got my head on right

But I don't see what's wrong

If we really fell in love

I wouldn't make this song

It wouldn't take so long

The words would find me on their own

I wouldn't drive myself to madness

I wouldn't have to be alone