[Verse 1]

Uh, we all met at the emergency room

Putting in a call to big sis that an emergency looms

Consider this a courtesy I certainly groomed

Not to freak out, but momma needs surgery soon

I'm at the front desk, digging through her purse

Tryna find a medical card, talking to this male nurse

And what prevails worse, is when this dude leaned over and asks "How much do you charge to sell a verse?"

I almost lost it, I'm tryna fight my tears

This nigga on the computer googling Locksmith

Blasting my youtube battles off

Should I slap this nigga or should I laugh it off

But that's the nonsense I deal with

Being halfway famous coping with real shit

But I learned about it real quick

To this day I never feel shit!

[Hook]

I feel I'm going numb

What have I become?

How do I survive?

Look at what I've done?

Look at all the pain and it's only just begun

I'm tryna find myself and there's nowhere to run

I think I'm going numb

What have I become?

Look at what I've done

Look at all the pain and it's only just begun

[Verse 2]

Uh, and now i'm gettin' inpatient

Pissed off cause we never should of been waiting

I mean its hospital policy

When it's life or death that person becomes an Inn patient

But we still inside of the ER

Right next to dope fiends receiving CPR

And these doctors is being retards

This close to death and they treating with dis-regard

But that's a part of life challenges

Tryna figure this out and how I manage this

Swinging my fist into they calluses

I wrote this verse to the beats of your dialysis

And now it's just your face as an imagery

Remember me as your last son eventually

We all bound to meet you up there

Though I feel it's not fair, I find peace in your memory

[Hook]

I feel I'm going numb

What have I become?

How do I survive?

Look at what I've done?

Look at all the pain and it's only just begun

I'm tryna find myself and there's nowhere to run

I think I'm going numb

What have I become?

Look at what I've done

Look at all the pain and it's only just begun