[Verse 1]

It's 1 PM before I get out bed

Too late to make coffee but it wouldn’t matter anyway

I'm too apathetic to wake myself up for the day

I could sit down and try call up my mom

But I'm afraid that if I did that, I’d be talking too long

And remember everything that happened back home

That happened back home

[Verse 2]

And I'm trying my best not to fuck things up for myself this time

And I'm not sad because I'm lonely, I'm lonely because I'm so fucking sad inside

But at the very least I know that it can't get much worse than this

Unless I secretly I want it to

I secretly want it to

[Chorus]

I secretly want it to

I secretly want it to

I secretly want it to

I secretly want it to, want it to, want it

I secretly want it to

I secretly want it to

I secretly want it to

I secretly want it to, want it to, want it to