[Intro]

I don't know if this is something

That I wanna keep doing

With my life

I guess I’ll find out

[Verse]

Pain, that's an old friend

Apathy, it's grabbing me

Weighing me down like gravity

Laying in the pits of depravity

Go ahead, take a stab at me

I’m sicker and I'm crippled by the madness see

'cause this demons appetite it's rabid see

It be feeding on the time that's passing me, damn

K, thinking bout the things that are hard for myself, nothing

Did it all for myself, really

Reaching for the pills on the top of the shelf, don't do it

I can't, I'm awful again

This morphine is offering this shelter

I’m a poor orphan

Just gotta pour more feeling in my pores and my orifices, nah

I just really gotta fight this shit

I been sick up to the day then the night with this shit

Sick a minute, pain with a knife in this shit

Pain is in your way, out my mind with this shit

Stop it, get out of my head

Ima fight this feeling ’till I end up dead

I am killing off these demons just to say that I did, nah

Ima do it for myself

Everything I do, Ima do it for myself

My minds selfish, but it's locked in a cell

And it’s left me helpless

You'd say the same things if you felt this shit

You'd be the same way if you felt this shit

You'd hate your own brain if you felt this shit

This ain’t a game, 'cause I'm feeling insane

Everyday is a battle, this shit ain't a fucking game man, fuck

Ask me 'bout the way that I treat myself

Ask me if I really wanna be myself

I don't really wanna be myself

I wanna see myself happy

But even that's just a sad dream

No matter how I grab

It's just out of reach

And I'm thinking that they just gotta to see the talent that I have

It'll come back to me

But actually it's a fallacy

It's the feeling that I have that's grabbing me

And choking me

Every hater that been mad at my tracks

You can deep-throat this, no, fucking choke on it

This ain't a goddamn joke

It's a promise that I made to myself

Never give up

Never give in

All the lines that I written

Learn from 'em

Yearn from 'em

Like I burn from 'em

[Outro]

But I always gotta learn from 'em

You always gotta learn

That no matter how sad you are

No matter how depressed you are

You can always come back from that, you can always put in effort

To keep doing your best, you can fight through that

Make motivation a thing

Make it happen for yourself

That's what I gotta do

See you in the next one

Later