[Intro]
Summer time, Sunday nights
I was feeling low with my hopes high
I was in the city with my nose down
Writing all them songs by my lonesome
Struggling, pacing in
The dark in the back of them apartments
Whole damn time
Whole damn time
[Verse 1]
2018's a distant memory
Romanticize struggle of the century
My Grandma died, the reaper took the centerpiece of my family
I was already depressed, thank you, irony
I was already afraid, thanks, anxiety
I already felt alone, thank you, society
Remember being in the room when Grandma cried to me, she said
"Doobie, they tryna kill me, please help me out of this bed"
Her face seemed to be wincing from the pain between her legs
Higher than crack fiends on Peachtree
And white teens at a spring bling
She was on more Morphine than necessary
Just a third of the size that she was last February
Yellowing in the eyes, I could tell she was very weary
My big mama gone now
Nobody there but Qui at her home now
My lil' sis in that big house all alone now
I am so sorry, Qui
You deserve better than what you got to see
You deserve niggas that treat you properly
You deserve better than watching everyone you love, one by one, move out the house and leave
[Pre-Chorus]
And I'm not tryna spill nobody business
I did not write this shit for no hitlist
I just wanna set the tone
[Chorus]
All the songs that I've written
Never bring me out the void
Never takes me from this place
Never blocks me from the noise
All the songs that I've written
Never brings me out the void
Never takes me from this place
Never blocks me from the noise
[Verse 2]
YTO, that's my bro, it's love 4L 'til I die
He had a much harder life than I
So now he keep a chip on his shoulder
But that chip done got so fucking big it's a boulder
And I'm not saying trauma just up and go when you're older
But big bro, you got some shit you need to let go of, it's holding you back
The elephant in the room used to be more silent than that
Now it's louder than the crowd when Babe Ruth up for bat
He got some demons on him
They been breathin' on him, schemin' on him (Schemin')
All in his head, I know he don't want 'em, uh
Marco my only brother on both sides
If he told you two truths, know they both lies
If he told you two jokes, know they both funny
Look, honestly, I think it's his defense mechanism
A hard childhood will bring the jokes out a nigga
I understand that most niggas won't understand him
He is not a bad person, just a good one that is somehow always in the wrong circumstances
Always takin' a chance on takin' the wrong chances
[Pre-Chorus]
And I'm not tryna spill nobody business
I did not write this for no hitlist
Just wanna set the tone
[Chorus]
All the songs that I've written
Never bring me out the void
Never takes me from this place
Never blocks me from the noise
All the songs that I've written
Never brings me out the void
Never takes me from this place
Never blocks me from the noise