[Verse]

When goin' through shit on your own, seem like time never matter

Gotta live your life while you still here, we don't know what's coming after

Most of my days filled with Percocets and disturbing laughter

Could read my life just like a book, all these years feel like flippin' through chapters

Stop tryna find love, 'cause it always seems to end in disaster

Hope when it happens, that I don't get left behind by the rapture

It's hard to capture all the thoughts that's floating through my mind

Hope the new bitch that I likе ain't into waistin' time

My life feel like a wastе of time

Even with all these diamonds that's on my body, still be hard to shine

One day just wanna hop in a Masi' and lose control while I drive

Prolly speedin' down 195, with that fire in my ride

Wonder, "If I go lay down today, who gon' be on my side?"

Like I need therapy, I wake up early thinkin' 'bout homicide

Knowin' that that’s fucked up to say, but that's the truth

Think my life stuck in a loop, while I'm jumping through these circles

Headfirst like in the circus, when they set fire to a hula hoop

You know I been stopped fuckin' with whoopty-whoop

I had love for that bitch, the bro told me she wasn't nothin' but a swoop

I'm prolly slidin' in traffic, with a full size K in a two-seater coupe

Tryna see what the fuck next for me me to do

Back at home, I'm running circles 'round niggas that was rappin' way 'fore I started

But still let me skip the line, though

When I came, don't know where the fuck I'd be today

I ain't lying, though, play with him and I'm slidin', ho

Yeah, I got a good heart, but when it's time for it, I take a headshot

Or throw this shit away and go lay down for it

How I'm living, I was born for it

The top, I been goin' for it

My respect, know I'm blowin' for it

How you expect me to keep it real with you? From you I never saw

Not even a decent amount of decency

The ones that say they love me, behind my back speaking secretly

I done been through the worst, it ain't shit out here that could put cease to me

Got bad bitches holding seats for me

Secret restaurants out in Cali

Got me dining in places you couldn't even eat with me

My mind so stuck on murder, in important places with heat on me

Places you wouldn't even think that heat'll be

I did shit in the dark and dug it deep where nobody can see

I admire your manifestation on who you wanna be

Niggas want me on a tee

Insomnia got it hard to sleep, at night I'm fightin' PTSD

Reminiscing on nights that I cried, I won't die the same way as Lil P

I've been having to mix Percocets and Xans just to get some sleep

Catch at least two flights every month, traveling to different states

I keep my eyes forward, say, "Fuck the past" and just keep moving straight

Did shit when I was young, I'm older now, won't dwell on my mistakes

With me and God, your life up for debate like your head on a stake

Lately money been raining from the sky, went and bought me a Wraith

Shout out Future and Drake

Life ain't been good, this shit been fucking great

Dropped that bag, my young niggas gon' come smash your lil' head like a grape

BBG my dog, lil' bro a stepper and he banging Grape

They throw so much hate in my face, I'm starting to think it's normal

Emails, we sending formal

Most of them start with, "I'm here to inform you"

You might have passed up on your chance to sign the biggest artist

Out this generation, just 'cause his looks or the tats on his hands

Gravedigger, I got that engrated to my skin

All we know get it in

Go slide and ain't hit shit, then we gon' spin again

Can take a nigga out the hood, but can't take the hood up out a nigga

From the label got a bag, I been trying hard not to spin out the Benz

Yeah, that's my dog from out of Florida, shout out Spinabenz

Wish I can bring Red back for a day, just so we can sin again

Like 50 Cent out in these streets, I done lost many men

Niggas that 'round been 'round me my whole life, I ain't got too many friends

Friendships, they tend to tear, when discussions is about dividends

Discussing shit that should only be mumbled, treat that like a sin

Tryna overturn my daddy sentence, can't let him do nineteen in the pen

Lawyers don't answer phones, prolly what's wrong with his predicament

I said shit that I never meant, dreamed of places I never went

Still seem to find myself arguing with myself, 'bout bitches that I'm with

Not scared of commitment, more so scared to commit

He said my name, I dropped ten thousand and got him hit with a stick, facts